haha. yes.. this has been the most memorable birthday of my life. ironically, i wasn't expecting much. haha.. but yeah.. thanks all of you! it really really made my day.. from the flowers to the three little "robbers" squatting outside my gate.. to the brownie saga and the surprise party, to washing my car! it was really really memorable. i should take and steal some pictures soon! :)

oh oh! and something really memorable that happened was that when i was driving home, i saw a rainbow! right in front of my field of vision! really beautiful.. really felt the wonder of God's creation and His love for me then. really amazing.. :)

"When the oceans rise and thunders roar,
I will soar with You above the storm,
Father You are King over the flood,
I will be still, know You are God."

good stuff.

his singing's good.

i've only one word to describe myself at this point of time: restless.

my new motto till the end of sem: whenever you find yourself very free, go and study!

well, i don't think i'll be finding myself very free nowadays to start with! but still, it's a good rule to abide by. at least for now..

heh.. been thinking alot the past few days. but yeah.. they've been quite messy and random. sometimes i'll think about work, sometimes other things. i wish i had sorters to sort my thoughts and place them in their respective files. :) and while we're at it, an alarm too which goes off whenever i think wrong thoughts.. hahaha..

ok.. im rambling. it's just pre-work inertia..

just got home from cycling! it was good.. just taking a break. left everything at home and i cycled to east coast park with bryan. we stopped by bedok jetty for awhile. stood there looking up at the stars and stoning at the waves. haha.. i remembered what i learnt from my qt a few days ago.. "even the wind and the waves obey Him".. yup. all in all, was a good time. sharing.. cycling.. dragging the bike across the bridge.

haha. when i think abt this week, the stuff that lingered most in my mind was the humongous sushi buffet we had yesterday and our tried and tested theory on snorting, the horribly disgusting smell of e.coli when we were disposing of our microB specimens today in lab, pharmaco lab and rabbit intestines, and the aunty at the microB lab telling laiyi to be careful when disposing of the bacteria, lest he spill some on one of our heads.. eek.

that's it. i can't remember anything else.. haha. except that after next wk, i have many long weeks coming up ahead. somehow, i am always reminded of that whenever i go for microB.. cos she'll remind us that we have 3 presentations and at the end there's always a short quiz. not forgetting our pract test. heh.. *whines*

just now, my parents were really funny. they were showing me this aquamarine pendant they got for me for my birthday, cos apparently that's my birthstone. then my mum said.. "i wanted to get you a diamond, but it was too expensive." then i asked.. "huh? why? i don't need it what." and she replied simply "cos diamonds are a girl's best friend" haha.. day to day ramblings in the tan household.

did you ever talk to God above
tell Him that you need a friend to love
pray in Jesus' Name believing that God answers prayer

have you told Him all your cares and woes
every tiny little fear He knows
you can know He'll always hear
and He will answer prayer

you can whisper in a crowd to Him
you can cry when you're alone to Him
you don't have to pray out loud to Him
He knows your thoughts

on a lofty mountain peak He's there
in a meadow by a stream He's there
anywhere on earth you go,
He's been there from the start

find the answer in His Word it's true
you'll be strong because He walks with you
by His faithfulness He'll change you too
God answers prayer...

"You knew this day at my creation
You knew my life from birth
Though I ran from You
You never took Your eyes off me
You shine Your light into my presence
To reveal Your faithfulness
I'll run this race all of my days
Till I see Your face

On that day,
when I walk down this aisle
I know my King will be waiting for me
On that day,
in that heavenly place,
The angels sing the beautiful Name
of the Lord...
-The Groom and His bride

this is half of the song my cousin wrote for his wedding day. it brought me very close to tears when he sang it just now. i was reminded of Christ's second coming, and the hope i had to have.. but more than that.. it was a testimony of God's work in the life of my cousin. the amazing lifechange in a person i've known all my life. i just felt so overwhelmed. seeing how he uses his talents for God's glory.. the way he loves God, his wife and family so much.. the way he serves so fervently at the workplace and in church. a few years ago, i wouldn't have even thought i'd be witnessing all these things. maybe it was also God reminding me of His faithfulness and His ability to accomplish the impossible. sigh..

spent quite some time talking to my uncle and cousin before and during the wedding dinner as well. both shared quite alot with me today. maybe that's it.. maybe God uses suffering and struggling to mould us and bring us closer to Him.. to constantly remind us to trust in Him. i've never really felt like i needed to struggle so much before.. it's been so tiring, sometimes i just feel like giving up. but yeah.. i shouldn't..

i wish you came today. it's been such a long time.

this is rather alarming.

source: michelle's friend

"Praise You God of earth and sky
How beautiful is Your unfailing love,
Your unfailing love

And You never change God You remain,
The Holy One
My unfailing love, unfailing love"
-Unfailing love, Chris Tomlin

really thank God for the time i spent with you guys tonight. somehow i felt better after sharing.. and after praying. thanks so much.

sigh.. it's been a long week.

'Then I saw a new heaven a new earth, for the first heaven and the first earth had passed away, and there was no longer any sea. I saw the Holy City, the new Jerusalem, coming down out of heaven from God, prepared as a bride beautifully dressed for her husband. And I heard a loud voice from the throne saying, "Now the dwelling of God is with men, and He will live with them. They will be His people, and God Himself will be with them and be their God. He will wipe every tear from their eyes. There will be no more death or mourning or crying or pain, for the old order of things has passed away."'- Revelations 21: 1-4

already but not quite yet. i can't wait for the finish.

oh HO HO HO.. the week's finally over. i'm currently in an i-need-to-study-but-im-terribly-sleepy mood. was quite a long and tiring week. and i have tests coming up in the weeks to come. but lab on wednesday made me feel better cos for the first time in my twenty-nearing-twenty-one years of existence, my lab results were rather accurate! i actually got a straight line calibration graph. ok.. that might not have seemed like a big deal, but for one who's had a tiring and rather gloomy week, that uh.. meant alot! haha..

pharm bazaar: we all went for body fat analysis.. haha.. everyone was so amazed that for someone my size, i actually had that amount of body fat in me. heh. ok.. time to get started on work.