this is one of my weaknesses.

"There sits Simon so foolishly wise
Proudly he's tending his nets
Then Jesus calls and the boats drift away
And all that he owns he forgets
But more than the nets he abandoned that day
He found that his pride was soon drifting away
And it's hard to imagine the freedom we find
From the things we leave behind

Matthew was mindful of taking the tax
And pressing the people to pay
But hearing the call he responded in faith
And followed the Light and the Way
And leaving the people so puzzled he found
The greed in his heart was no longer around
And it's hard to imagine the freedom we find
From the things we leave behind

Every heart needs to be set free
From possessions that hold it so tight
'Cause freedom's not found in the things that we own
It's the power to do what is right
With Jesus, our only possession
Then giving becomes our delight
And we can't imagine the freedom we find
From the things we leave behind

We show a love for the world in our lives
By worshipping goods we possess
When Jesus says, Lay all your treasures aside
And love God above all the rest
'Cause when we say no to the things of the world
We open our hearts to the love of the Lord
And it's hard to imagine the freedom we find
From the things we leave behind."
-Things we leave behind, Michael Card

what i've been thinking about lately:

"May my life declare the honour of Your Name,
reveal the heart of Christ who came
to light the darkest place with sacrificial love.

Cause me Lord to reach out in the Father's Name,
to glorify the Lamb once slain
to light the darkest place with sacrificial love.

Teach me Lord, to make my life as an offering,
to tell the world that Jesus Christ is King
for the glory of God."
-May my life, Dave Bilbrough

the past week has been kinda hectic.. thinking about youth sunday, daily prayer meetings, newcomers party.. and an almost-surprise. heh! now i'm just wondering how my pharm friends are doing at their respective pharmacies...

"From the highest of heights to the depths of the sea,
Creation's revealing Your majesty.
From the colors of fall to the fragrance of spring,
Every creature unique in the song that it sings. All exclaiming...

Indescribable, Uncontainable,
You placed the stars in the sky and You know them by name.
You are amazing God.
All powerful, Untameable,
Awestruck we fall to our knees and we humbly proclaim,
You are amazing God.

Who has told every lightning bolt where it should go,
Or seen heavenly storehouses laden with snow?
Who imagined the sun and gives source to its light,
Yet conceals it to give us the coolness of night?
None can fathom...

Incomparable, Unchangeable,
You see the depths of my heart and You love me the same.
You are amazing God."
-Indescribable, Chris Tomlin

haha.. how time flies. i think it was exactly a year ago that we organized CSI:SG. now, one year later, things have changed so much.

it was a tiring day today.. the sermon really struck me. especially the part about prayer. prayer.. not just about being crafted out beautifully, but prayer, out of holy desperation and of deepest surrender and dependence on God. that is when God's hand moves..

i realised that i haven't been praying enough. i've been taking prayer for granted. i mean, when you think about it. the greatest privilege given to mankind.. to commune with the God of all things, and yet i pass on such a privilege and would rather turn my attention to other things. yeah.. we all need to pray more, individually and as a church...

Lord we humbly come before You
we don't deserve of You what we ask
but we long to see Your glory
restore this dying land

"Are you tired of chasing pretty rainbows?
Are you tired of spinning round and round?
Wrap up all those shattered dreams of your life
And at the feet of Jesus, lay them down.

Give them all, give them all, give them all to Jesus
Shattered dreams, wounded hearts, and broken toys.
Give them all, give them all, give them all to Jesus
And He will turn your sorrows into joy.

He never said you only see sunshine,
He never said there would be no rain.
He only promised a heart full of singing
About the very thing that once brought pain."
-Give Them All

heh.. post-exam days have been spent rather enjoyably. (if there's even a word) i've been running around pigging out quite abit, started on a new book, got meself a haircut! went shopping with my mum today (surprise surprise!) and been surfing funny websites.. (guess my recent favourite)

well, i still got alot to accomplish this hols.. wanna finish reading the NT by the end of May.. and start on OT by June.. lots more books to read, gotta think more about the worship team and youth sunday, my mentoring girls and the DGLs, and i NEED to pack my room! seriously need to throw stuff, get rid of the mess on the floor and what not. and i need more exercise! more badminton and swimming and running! :)and yeah, i wanna meet up with everyone.. it's been such a long time. GB-ers, MGS ppl.. my JC class.. etc.

haha, on a more serious note, as i was shopping today, i realised i was unconsciously thinking this: "if only i had.... if only i had... " then i stopped myself cos this phrase came to me: godliness with contentment is great gain. then i started wondering what it meant to be content. i thought about being totally satisfied next time in God's presence. and i was reminded that next time, i will be contented not with everything i wanted, but everything i needed. and well, everything i need is God. that's all. and i will be solely content with that! wow! i can't wait to live in total contentment.. for eternity.

"Make me a channel of Your peace,
Where there is hatred, let me bring Your love,
Where there is injury, Your pardon Lord,
And where there's doubt, true faith in You.

Make me a channel of Your peace,
Where there's despair in life let me bring hope,
Where there is darkness - only light,
And where there's sadness, ever joy.

Oh Master, grant that I may never seek,
So much to be consoled as to console,
To be understood, as to understand,
To be loved, as to love with all my soul

Make me a channel of Your peace,
It is in pardoning that we are pardoned,
In giving to all men that we receive,
And in dying that we're born to eternal life."

one of my favourite jay chou songs.