this is one of my weaknesses.

"There sits Simon so foolishly wise
Proudly he's tending his nets
Then Jesus calls and the boats drift away
And all that he owns he forgets
But more than the nets he abandoned that day
He found that his pride was soon drifting away
And it's hard to imagine the freedom we find
From the things we leave behind

Matthew was mindful of taking the tax
And pressing the people to pay
But hearing the call he responded in faith
And followed the Light and the Way
And leaving the people so puzzled he found
The greed in his heart was no longer around
And it's hard to imagine the freedom we find
From the things we leave behind

Every heart needs to be set free
From possessions that hold it so tight
'Cause freedom's not found in the things that we own
It's the power to do what is right
With Jesus, our only possession
Then giving becomes our delight
And we can't imagine the freedom we find
From the things we leave behind

We show a love for the world in our lives
By worshipping goods we possess
When Jesus says, Lay all your treasures aside
And love God above all the rest
'Cause when we say no to the things of the world
We open our hearts to the love of the Lord
And it's hard to imagine the freedom we find
From the things we leave behind."
-Things we leave behind, Michael Card

what i've been thinking about lately:

"May my life declare the honour of Your Name,
reveal the heart of Christ who came
to light the darkest place with sacrificial love.

Cause me Lord to reach out in the Father's Name,
to glorify the Lamb once slain
to light the darkest place with sacrificial love.

Teach me Lord, to make my life as an offering,
to tell the world that Jesus Christ is King
for the glory of God."
-May my life, Dave Bilbrough

the past week has been kinda hectic.. thinking about youth sunday, daily prayer meetings, newcomers party.. and an almost-surprise. heh! now i'm just wondering how my pharm friends are doing at their respective pharmacies...

"From the highest of heights to the depths of the sea,
Creation's revealing Your majesty.
From the colors of fall to the fragrance of spring,
Every creature unique in the song that it sings. All exclaiming...

Indescribable, Uncontainable,
You placed the stars in the sky and You know them by name.
You are amazing God.
All powerful, Untameable,
Awestruck we fall to our knees and we humbly proclaim,
You are amazing God.

Who has told every lightning bolt where it should go,
Or seen heavenly storehouses laden with snow?
Who imagined the sun and gives source to its light,
Yet conceals it to give us the coolness of night?
None can fathom...

Incomparable, Unchangeable,
You see the depths of my heart and You love me the same.
You are amazing God."
-Indescribable, Chris Tomlin

haha.. how time flies. i think it was exactly a year ago that we organized CSI:SG. now, one year later, things have changed so much.

it was a tiring day today.. the sermon really struck me. especially the part about prayer. prayer.. not just about being crafted out beautifully, but prayer, out of holy desperation and of deepest surrender and dependence on God. that is when God's hand moves..

i realised that i haven't been praying enough. i've been taking prayer for granted. i mean, when you think about it. the greatest privilege given to mankind.. to commune with the God of all things, and yet i pass on such a privilege and would rather turn my attention to other things. yeah.. we all need to pray more, individually and as a church...

Lord we humbly come before You
we don't deserve of You what we ask
but we long to see Your glory
restore this dying land

"Are you tired of chasing pretty rainbows?
Are you tired of spinning round and round?
Wrap up all those shattered dreams of your life
And at the feet of Jesus, lay them down.

Give them all, give them all, give them all to Jesus
Shattered dreams, wounded hearts, and broken toys.
Give them all, give them all, give them all to Jesus
And He will turn your sorrows into joy.

He never said you only see sunshine,
He never said there would be no rain.
He only promised a heart full of singing
About the very thing that once brought pain."
-Give Them All

heh.. post-exam days have been spent rather enjoyably. (if there's even a word) i've been running around pigging out quite abit, started on a new book, got meself a haircut! went shopping with my mum today (surprise surprise!) and been surfing funny websites.. (guess my recent favourite)

well, i still got alot to accomplish this hols.. wanna finish reading the NT by the end of May.. and start on OT by June.. lots more books to read, gotta think more about the worship team and youth sunday, my mentoring girls and the DGLs, and i NEED to pack my room! seriously need to throw stuff, get rid of the mess on the floor and what not. and i need more exercise! more badminton and swimming and running! :)and yeah, i wanna meet up with everyone.. it's been such a long time. GB-ers, MGS ppl.. my JC class.. etc.

haha, on a more serious note, as i was shopping today, i realised i was unconsciously thinking this: "if only i had.... if only i had... " then i stopped myself cos this phrase came to me: godliness with contentment is great gain. then i started wondering what it meant to be content. i thought about being totally satisfied next time in God's presence. and i was reminded that next time, i will be contented not with everything i wanted, but everything i needed. and well, everything i need is God. that's all. and i will be solely content with that! wow! i can't wait to live in total contentment.. for eternity.

"Make me a channel of Your peace,
Where there is hatred, let me bring Your love,
Where there is injury, Your pardon Lord,
And where there's doubt, true faith in You.

Make me a channel of Your peace,
Where there's despair in life let me bring hope,
Where there is darkness - only light,
And where there's sadness, ever joy.

Oh Master, grant that I may never seek,
So much to be consoled as to console,
To be understood, as to understand,
To be loved, as to love with all my soul

Make me a channel of Your peace,
It is in pardoning that we are pardoned,
In giving to all men that we receive,
And in dying that we're born to eternal life."

one of my favourite jay chou songs.

sunset in the face of looming thunderstorm, i took this from the balcony outside my room. amazing eh?

heh.. i know im supposed to be working at microB now.. but im feeling quite sian. just done with one paper a few hours ago, and im lying on my back with the laptop on my stomach typing this. 2 more days till the end of exams. well, there's still top 90 drugs test next week, but at least the worst is over (ie. pharmaco). ok maybe i haven't seen microB yet. hahaha.. but on the hindsight.. thank God for bringing me thru this period. it's really been a week where i've had to leave everything in His hands and keep moving.

ok, just for entertainment's sake.. this is what three bored people came up with in the eusoff hall study room today:



now.. guess their identities!

what i learnt from the analysis paper
1. doesn't matter whether you know how a radical jumps from molecule to molecule, as long as you don't know validation, you're done for.
2. it's abit of a waste of time.

what i learnt from pharmaco
1. you can mug all sem, but if you don't go thru everything the night before, you're also done for.
2. a tired celine = a very grumpy celine

im gonna sleep..

:( im going crazy crazy crazy... there's too much information to squeeze into my head! think i already got all the drug names mixed up. argh.. and im gonna need to keep at this for the next week and a half. i need an enlarged brain.

"Long ago He blessed the earth
Born older than the years;
And in the stall the cross He saw
through the first of many tears.
A life of homeless wandering,
Cast out in sorrow's way,
The Shepherd seeking for the lost;
His life the price He paid

Love crucified arose,
The risen One in splendour,
Jehovah's sole defender,
Has won the victory.
Love crucified arose,
And the grave became a place of hope,
For the heart that sin and sorrow broke,
Is beating once again.

Throughout Your life You felt the weight
Of what You'd come to give;
To drink for us that crimson cup
So we might really live.
At last the time to love and die
The dark appointed day
That one forsaken moment when
Your Father turned His face away.

Love crucified arose
The One who lived and died for me,
Was satan's nail-pierced casualty
Now He's breathing once again.
Love crucified arose
And the grave became a place of hope,
For the heart that sin and sorrow broke,
Is beating once again."
-Love crucified arose, Michael Card

How long, O Lord.. how long?

"King of my life, I crown Thee now,
Thine shall Thy glory be,
Lest I forget Thy thorn-crowned brow
Lead me to calvary.

Lest I forget Gethsemane,
Lest I forget Thine angony
Lest I forget Thine love for me
Lead me to Calvary.

Show me the tomb where Thou was laid
Tenderly mourned and wept
Angels in robes of light arrayed
Guarded Thee whilst Thou slept.

Lest I forget Gethsemane,
Lest I forget Thine agony
Lest I forget Thine love for me
Lead me to Calvary.

Let me like Mary, through the gloom
Come with a gift to Thee;
Show to me now the empty tomb
Lead me to Calvary.

Lest I forget Gethsemane,
Lest I forget Thine agony
Lest I forget Thine love for me
Lead me to Calvary.

May I be willing, Lord to bear;
Daily my cross for Thee.
Even Thy cup of grief to share,
Thou hast borne all for me.

Lest I forget Gethsemane,
Lest I forget Thine agony
Lest I forget Thine love for me
Lead me to Calvary."



spent some time playing the piano after lunch. i miss expressing myself to God through music.

love song.

*phew* here i am.. at the end of one of the longest days in the semester.. feeling like a stone. the day was really long.. first time in my life i had three tests in a row, one after the other. i had to switch modes continuously. but thankfully, psych and sdl weren't that bad. it was pharmaco that killed. by then, my brain was kinda fried anyway. heh.. and i guessed even though it was negative marking! couldn't help it.. :s

anyway, i am gonna study less over the weekend. really need the break.. need to prepare for presentation on wednesday and microB tutorial on tuesday.. but generally that's all im gonna do, plus draw up my study schedule for exams. then monday i'll go full steam. heh.. i hope!!!!

and yah.. i ended up not going for that birthday party! but we did end up at holland v for dinner. haha.. but well, it was a good time catching up.

tired. im refuse to type anymore...

-Jesus take the wheel, Carrie Underwood

" 9 How can a young man keep his way pure?
By living according to Your word.
10 I seek You with all my heart;
do not let me stray from Your commands.

11 I have hidden Your word in my heart
that I might not sin against You.

12 Praise be to You, O LORD;
teach me Your decrees.

13 With my lips I recount
all the laws that come from Your mouth.

14 I rejoice in following Your statutes
as one rejoices in great riches.

15 I meditate on Your precepts
and consider Your ways.

16 I delight in Your decrees;
I will not neglect Your word." -Psalms 119: 9-16