dotty!

went for the wake yesterday.

the whole experience was so mixed. after paying our respects, we sat down and remembered our sec4 days with her. how we dreaded tuesdays cos we had 5 periods of chem plus chem pract. and how we used to piss our physics teacher off cos we would start getting ready for chem pract during our physics lesson.. how mel would scurry off to other classes in search of a proper OHP before every chem lesson (and how other classes would so willingly lend it to us the moment they heard she wanted it). so many other memories (entry on 8/8)of her that we reminisced and laughed about.

yet, all of us felt the loss, and the pain that came along with it. i regretted not going back to see her last year, knowing her health was deteriorating. i'd taken for granted that she'd always be at MG and i could drop by anytime to see her.

i realized also, during the national day prayer service yesterday, that God had used her, even though she refused to accept Him then, to demonstrate to us MG girls what love is. the strongest and most dedicated teacher i've ever known. she never missed a day of school during my time at MG, and she gave us what we needed, not what we wanted. she never minced her words with us, gave it to us good and proper. yet, it was out of a desire to see her students grow in humility. she would always remind us to be humble and hardworking, not "yaya papayas"..

she told us that if ever we were stressed, we could come back to look for her and she'd take us to eat fish. now she's gone.. and i miss her dearly.