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Sunday, October 08, 2006

Be it in a quiet pasture
Or by a gentle stream
The Shepherd of my soul is by my side

Should I face a mighty mountain
Or a valley dark and deep
The Shepherd of my soul is by my side

Monday, October 02, 2006

"Lord renew my mind, as Your will unfolds in my life
In living everyday, by the power of Your love."

"i've reached a point where i can only take 1 day @ a time .. anything more than that is too scary..." -quote from a friend.
my sentiments exactly. heh.

Thursday, September 28, 2006

while reading the chapter on Rahab in John Macarthur's "Twelve Extraordinary Women", i came across this biblical account:

"Now before they lay down, she came up to them on the roof, and said to the men: "I know that the Lord has given you the land, that the terror of you has fallen on us, and that all the inhabitants of the land are fainthearted because of you. For we have heard how the Lord dried up the water of the Red Sea for you when you came out of Egypt, and what you did to the two kings of the Amorites who were on the other side of the Jordan, Sihon and Og, whom you utterly destroyed. And as soon as we heard these things, our hearts melted; neither did there remain any more courage in anyone because of you, for the Lord your God, He is God in heaven above and on earth beneath..."
- Joshua 2: 8-11

it struck me because the people living in Jericho then, Rahab included, feared the Lord, feared the prowess of our God. just by hearing what God had done to save and deliver the Israelites time and again, made them fear.. made their hearts melt. and when i read the passage, somehow i myself was struck with that same fear of God plus an additional sense of awe. somehow, the eyes of my heart were opened to the immeasurable greatness of an all-powerful God.

in Rahab's case, the fear in her led to what she did in faith, knowing that the God of the Israelites was God above all. it linked me back to the verse in Proverbs, The fear of the Lord is the beginning of wisdom. Rahab's fear of God led her to do something wise, in faith that the almighty God of Israel would protect her.

it led me to think about myself. what is my vision and understanding of God? do i fear Him enough to take steps of faith in obedience to Him like Rahab did? what should the fear of the Lord even look like?

Tuesday, September 26, 2006

"THE STILLNESS OF A SILENT SOUND

Sometimes we think we are doing well, but our hearts may be full of sin.
And little will we know how much until we get alone with Him.
Until we are able to get past the noisy questions of the head,
Until our "self" with all its claims is laid before the Lord as dead

How can we hear God's still small voice with music blaring in our ears,
Or know the peace the Spirit brings, the touch that calms our inner fears?
Until we are willing to shut out the noisiness of life around -
Willing to wait until we know the "stillness of a silent sound".

We are afraid to get too still, for in those quiet moments we
Will have to face just what we are, something we might not like to see.
The attitudes that grieve our Lord, the pride, the failures, how we have been -
But that is why we need so much those silent times "

these words spoke right to my heart when i saw them. how true right? got it from a friend's blog.. but i don't know who wrote this.. don't know if he does either. so.. to whoever you are, hope you don't mind. :)

Saturday, September 23, 2006

and so the term break is finally here!

i haven't blogged much the past few weeks. but it's fine.. i'm fine! been pretty busy, with an average of one test a week. but i survived the past three weeks, thank God.
been thinking alot, reading alot, playing the piano quite abit, studying LOTS, watching funny videos online and listening to podcasts, hanging around in the pharmacy room.. attending and chairing meetings here and there.. that pretty much sums it up.

this term break's gonna be a busy one though. two projects and a term paper to finish.. a few upcoming tests to study for.. and i've quite a lot of books and articles i want to read. so.. that's it for now i guess.. i don't really know why i updated.. maybe cos everyone keeps asking how i am. had a few quotes i wanted to blog about.. but not just yet i guess.

Sunday, September 17, 2006

in the middle of the night, while taking a breather from my lab reports, i visited the MGS webpage.

this made me cry.

Friday, September 15, 2006

"Charm is deceptive, and beauty is fleeting; but a woman who fears the Lord is to be praised."-Proverbs 31: 30

that's what matters, doesn't it..

Wednesday, September 13, 2006

heh.. it's amazing what a mere half an hour on the piano after dinner can do.. i feel so much more refreshed now after one long tiring day at school. came up with my own jazz rendition of "lead me to calvary" (though it was purely hitting on all the 7ths and 9ths i could possibly hit) and spent some time doing technical stuff. i realise my fingers have gone rather rusty..

pharmaco test tomorrow. oh well.. i'll see how that goes.. maybe i should spend some time during term break composing music to drug names! then maybe i'd be able to remember them better.. :>

but thank God.. really thank God He's kept me.. and that i'm not feeling terribly depressed by the pile of work that's mercilessly waiting for me.. and that i'm not feeling so bogged down by things..

"lest i forget Thine love for me,
lead me to calvary."

Saturday, September 09, 2006

"THe Lord does not look at the things man looks at. Man looks at the outward appearance but the Lord looks at the heart."-1 Samuel 16: 7b

You really know my heart, Lord. Thank You.

Friday, September 01, 2006

hmmm.. PRETTY interesting...

the Questioner

Thanks for taking the test !

you chose CY - your Enneagram type is SIX.

"I am affectionate and skeptical"

Questioners are responsible, trustworthy, and value loyalty to family,
friends, groups, and causes. Their personalities range broadly from reserved
and timid to outspoken and confrontative.

How to Get Along with Me

Be direct and clear.

Listen to me carefully.

Don't judge me for my anxiety.

Work things through with me.

Reassure me that everything is OK between us.

Laugh and make jokes with me.

Gently push me toward new experiences.

Try not to overreact to my overreacting.

What I Like About Being a Six

being committed and faithful to family and friends

being responsible and hardworking

being compassionate toward others

having intellect and wit

being a nonconformist

confronting danger bravely

being direct and assertive

What's Hard About Being a Six

the constant push and pull involved in trying to make up my mind

procrastinating because of fear of failure; having little confidence
in myself

fearing being abandoned or taken advantage of

exhausting myself by worrying and scanning for danger

wishing I had a rule book at work so I could do everything right

being too critical of myself when I haven't lived up to my expectations

Sixes as Children Often

are friendly, likable, and dependable, and/or sarcastic, bossy, and
stubborn

are anxious and hypervigilant; anticipate danger

form a team of "us against them" with a best friend or parent

look to groups or authorities to protect them and/or question authority
and rebel

are neglected or abused, come from unpredictable or alcoholic families,
and/or take on the fearfulness of an overly anxious parent

Sixes as Parents

are often loving, nurturing, and have a strong sense of duty

are sometimes reluctant to give their children independence

worry more than most that their children will get hurt

sometimes have trouble saying no and setting boundaries

Renee Baron & Elizabeth Wagele

The Enneagram Made Easy

Discover the 9 Types of People

Harper
SanFrancisco, 1994, 161 pages

Monday, August 28, 2006

"O let the Son of God enfold you
with His spirit and His love,
let Him fill your heart and satisfy your soul
O let Him have the things that hold you
and His Spirit like a dove
will descend upon your life and make you whole..."

many things on my heart, but i'll just post this verse up as a personal reminder to myself. 1 Thess 5:16-18

Wednesday, August 09, 2006

went for the wake yesterday.

the whole experience was so mixed. after paying our respects, we sat down and remembered our sec4 days with her. how we dreaded tuesdays cos we had 5 periods of chem plus chem pract. and how we used to piss our physics teacher off cos we would start getting ready for chem pract during our physics lesson.. how mel would scurry off to other classes in search of a proper OHP before every chem lesson (and how other classes would so willingly lend it to us the moment they heard she wanted it). so many other memories (entry on 8/8)of her that we reminisced and laughed about.

yet, all of us felt the loss, and the pain that came along with it. i regretted not going back to see her last year, knowing her health was deteriorating. i'd taken for granted that she'd always be at MG and i could drop by anytime to see her.

i realized also, during the national day prayer service yesterday, that God had used her, even though she refused to accept Him then, to demonstrate to us MG girls what love is. the strongest and most dedicated teacher i've ever known. she never missed a day of school during my time at MG, and she gave us what we needed, not what we wanted. she never minced her words with us, gave it to us good and proper. yet, it was out of a desire to see her students grow in humility. she would always remind us to be humble and hardworking, not "yaya papayas"..

she told us that if ever we were stressed, we could come back to look for her and she'd take us to eat fish. now she's gone.. and i miss her dearly.

Monday, August 07, 2006

"Because it isn't just concerts and surfing and the high points, and it isn't just the beautiful moments in the midst of the everyday and mundane; It is also in the tragic and the gut-wrenching moments when we cannot escape the simple fact that there is way more going on around us than we realize." -Velvet Elvis, Rob Bell

i have no idea why, but this paragraph got to me as i was reading the book.

life.. reality at its rawest. having just received news about the passing on of someone whom i've always held in high regard; someone who initially was the object of our fear, but as time passed, became a person we so deeply respected, someone whose stories and remarks we used to laugh and joke about repeatedly, someone whom i've always brought before the Lord, in the hope that He would save her. i'm still living in hope that she's gone home, and not anywhere else.

Tuesday, August 01, 2006

23072006.

finally.. been trying to get these photos up in days.

time is flying relentlessly..

Monday, July 17, 2006

wanted to blog, but my mind is muddled up.
maybe tomorrow...

Saturday, July 15, 2006

tired and weary -- i definitely understand the meaning of those two words.

Wednesday, July 05, 2006

reading blogs is so interesting.. quite a few of the pharm ppl have been blogging about preceptorship. i guess im not much of an exception.

been so tired lately.. sometimes i'm so tired i have no appetite.. and other times, i'm so tired i have such a big appetite. heh.. indecisive stomach i have! having to stand up quite alot when im working makes me appreciate sitting down.. and having to wear covered shoes makes me appreaciate being able to wear slippers everywhere else i go. haha..

but it's not too bad. i don't mind what i'm doing now, just that i get pretty nervous when im blur and do silly things.. like foul up at the cash register or forget where certain items are placed.. etc etc etc.

and at the end of the day, i like to lie down and dream that my aching body and legs are being massaged. hahaha.. that's working life.. for me.

Thursday, June 29, 2006

4 days into attachment.. and my feet are aching! but it's been quite interesting. learning to do alot of things, like using the cashier, pricing of goods, filling up forms, cash declaration.. etc etc. i've been looking around at all the different medicinal products as well. so many products with the same active ingredients, which one to recommend? that was what got me yesterday, cos someone asked me for medicine for cough and cold. and then i realised there were 2 shelves full of those. !!!!! but in the end, the PA came to my rescue.. heh

been reading proverbs these few days before work.. and it's been really helpful. helps me to get my focus and my attitude right before i start each day.
"Let not your heart envy sinners, but continue in the fear of the Lord all the day." -Proverbs 23:17

Sunday, June 25, 2006

tomorrow, tomorrow!

heh.. i think my holidays are as good as over. 6 weeks of preceptorship, after which i have another 1 week to prepare for school, then school really starts again. hmm.. but the past few weeks have been great. joses coming back.. church camp.. preparation for youth sunday.. thank God.

Wednesday, June 14, 2006

hmmm... yesterday we went for a walk in the park. best kinda weather to take photos!
and so we did..

of the flowers...

and the trees....

and....

weeeeeeee!!!!

hmm.. ok that was pretty random. wanted to post up pictures of church camp and the KL trip, but i don't really have a wide enough range to make a collage yet. :)