"O holy Child of Bethlehem,
descend to us, we pray;
cast out our sin and enter in,
be born in us today.
We hear the Christmas angels
the great glad tidings tell;
O come to us, abide with us,
our Lord Emmanuel!"
heh.. it's that time of the year again! Christmas! i guess Christmas has always been a time when i'm always rushing to write cards and buy presents, but yeah.. it's really more than that.. so much more than that! it wasn't until this year that it struck me.. how God in all His fullness, became one of us. the great salvation plan. Matthew 1:21
Saturday, December 24, 2005
Sunday, December 18, 2005
"Jesus is Lord - the cry that echoes through creation
resplendent pow'r, eternal Word, our Rock.
The Son of God, the King whose glory fills the heavens,
yet bids us come to taste this living Bread.
Jesus is Lord - whose voice sustains the stars and planets
Yet in His wisdom laid aside His crown.
Jesus the Man, who washed our feet, who bore our suffering,
Became a curse to bring salvation's plan.
Jesus is Lord - the tomb is gloriously empty!
Not even death could crush this King of love!
The price is paid, the chains are loosed, and we're forgiven,
And we can run into the arms of God.
Jesus is Lord - a shout of joy, a cry of anguish,
As He returns, and every knee bows low.
Then every eye and every heart will see His glory,
The Judge of all will take His children home."
resplendent pow'r, eternal Word, our Rock.
The Son of God, the King whose glory fills the heavens,
yet bids us come to taste this living Bread.
Jesus is Lord - whose voice sustains the stars and planets
Yet in His wisdom laid aside His crown.
Jesus the Man, who washed our feet, who bore our suffering,
Became a curse to bring salvation's plan.
Jesus is Lord - the tomb is gloriously empty!
Not even death could crush this King of love!
The price is paid, the chains are loosed, and we're forgiven,
And we can run into the arms of God.
Jesus is Lord - a shout of joy, a cry of anguish,
As He returns, and every knee bows low.
Then every eye and every heart will see His glory,
The Judge of all will take His children home."
Friday, December 16, 2005
Wednesday, December 14, 2005
Tuesday, December 13, 2005
Monday, December 12, 2005
Sunday, December 11, 2005
Saturday, December 10, 2005
Friday, December 09, 2005
Tuesday, November 29, 2005
"all i once held dear, built my life upon
all this world reveres and wars to own
all i once thought gain, i have counted loss
spent and worthless now, compared to this:
knowing You, Jesus, knowing You
there is no greater thing
You're my all, You're the best
You're my joy my righteousness
and i love You, Lord
now my heart's desire is to know You more
to be found in You, and known as Yours
to possess by faith, what i could not earn
all surpassing gift of righteousness.
oh to know the power of Your risen life
and to know You in Your suffering
to become like You in Your death, my Lord
so with You to live and never die."
let this be the prayer of our hearts, even as we look towards youthcamp05.
all this world reveres and wars to own
all i once thought gain, i have counted loss
spent and worthless now, compared to this:
knowing You, Jesus, knowing You
there is no greater thing
You're my all, You're the best
You're my joy my righteousness
and i love You, Lord
now my heart's desire is to know You more
to be found in You, and known as Yours
to possess by faith, what i could not earn
all surpassing gift of righteousness.
oh to know the power of Your risen life
and to know You in Your suffering
to become like You in Your death, my Lord
so with You to live and never die."
let this be the prayer of our hearts, even as we look towards youthcamp05.
Monday, November 28, 2005
two couples i know are getting married within the next two weeks. as music director for one of the weddings, i have been thinking alot about possible wedding processionals and recessionals. and believe me, some of the ideas that popped into my head are rather ridiculous.
one of the images that flashed through my head before: the bride running in to rimsky-korsakov's "flight of the bumblebee" played maksim style! another processional i thought of: the bride sashaying in to tom jones' "she's a lady".. woah-oh-oh, she's a lady! or even the song that goes.. "if you wanna be happy for the rest of your life.. never make a pretty woman your wife!" that'd be REALLY offensive to us girls though.
i'd personally rather music from the classical genre, though not those cliched ones. but i'd like a funky recessional! where the drummer hammers on the bass drum or whump!kick (courtesy of lucas) in anticipation of the band breaking out into music the congregation can tap their toes to, when the minister goes.. "i now pronounce you........"
haha. oh well. just random thoughts that go through my head from day to day.....
one of the images that flashed through my head before: the bride running in to rimsky-korsakov's "flight of the bumblebee" played maksim style! another processional i thought of: the bride sashaying in to tom jones' "she's a lady".. woah-oh-oh, she's a lady! or even the song that goes.. "if you wanna be happy for the rest of your life.. never make a pretty woman your wife!" that'd be REALLY offensive to us girls though.
i'd personally rather music from the classical genre, though not those cliched ones. but i'd like a funky recessional! where the drummer hammers on the bass drum or whump!kick (courtesy of lucas) in anticipation of the band breaking out into music the congregation can tap their toes to, when the minister goes.. "i now pronounce you........"
haha. oh well. just random thoughts that go through my head from day to day.....
Sunday, November 27, 2005
Friday, November 25, 2005
just got back from prayer meeting. Psalms 66. as i sat there and reflected, i realised there is alot to thank God for this year. for His faithfulness, His love, His mercy. uncle eng wah's sharing really touched me. the faith of a man who is going through such a trial. yet he sings praise about a God who cares for us and knows every single thing about us, even the number of strands of hair we have on our head. (yes, lucas has lots.) indeed, every single day is a gift from God.
Give thanks with a grateful heart.
Give thanks with a grateful heart.
Wednesday, November 23, 2005
my exams are finally over. thank God. cos i'm sooooooo tired now. the next hurdle to cross would be my piano exam.. next wednesday!
this morning before our paper, sarah and i studied at the science canteen cos our usual spot outside the med library was too cold. i sat there rather fidgety, trying to absorb bits of nucleotide metabolism. then i heard snippets of a conversation nearby.. between.. little boys. yeah. it was quite funny. at first, i thought there were only two of them, but i later discovered there were four.
i overheard bits and pieces like "cannot run around! if not you will be fined!" and "do you know the meaning of *censored*?"astonished, yet amused, i continued reading my notes. then came the hilarious part. "eh! you better say your grace. don't say grace cannot eat! EH! SAY GRACE!! SAY SAY SAY!! QUICK! SAY IT!"(mind you, that was done rather forcefully.) i looked up from my notes. sarah gave me a rather bewildered look. trying not to laugh, i went back to reading de novo pathway..
after awhile, the little boys started walking around.. and disturbing each other. at one point, the chubby one turned around, looked in my direction (i think) and flashed me a mischievous smile. haha. kids... they do the funniest things at the most unexpected times.
this morning before our paper, sarah and i studied at the science canteen cos our usual spot outside the med library was too cold. i sat there rather fidgety, trying to absorb bits of nucleotide metabolism. then i heard snippets of a conversation nearby.. between.. little boys. yeah. it was quite funny. at first, i thought there were only two of them, but i later discovered there were four.
i overheard bits and pieces like "cannot run around! if not you will be fined!" and "do you know the meaning of *censored*?"astonished, yet amused, i continued reading my notes. then came the hilarious part. "eh! you better say your grace. don't say grace cannot eat! EH! SAY GRACE!! SAY SAY SAY!! QUICK! SAY IT!"(mind you, that was done rather forcefully.) i looked up from my notes. sarah gave me a rather bewildered look. trying not to laugh, i went back to reading de novo pathway..
after awhile, the little boys started walking around.. and disturbing each other. at one point, the chubby one turned around, looked in my direction (i think) and flashed me a mischievous smile. haha. kids... they do the funniest things at the most unexpected times.
Sunday, November 20, 2005
and Lord we trust in Your unfailing love,
for You alone are God eternal
throughout earth and heaven above.
church was hectic as usual, and the month of december's just gonna send us flying all over the place. service today was really refreshing though. i went in there tired and weary and came out utterly encouraged by the worship and the sermon. relating who God is and what He does, with my personal life. yeah. we all need that. after all, what makes us think that the same God who put the stars in their place and fed 5000 people with just 5 loaves and 2 fishes can't see us through our difficulties?
had a very filling lunch after church. i think i consumed half a plate of baby kailan. bleah. no one is pro-vegetable. for now.. i need a nap before venturing into the world of legislations.
for You alone are God eternal
throughout earth and heaven above.
church was hectic as usual, and the month of december's just gonna send us flying all over the place. service today was really refreshing though. i went in there tired and weary and came out utterly encouraged by the worship and the sermon. relating who God is and what He does, with my personal life. yeah. we all need that. after all, what makes us think that the same God who put the stars in their place and fed 5000 people with just 5 loaves and 2 fishes can't see us through our difficulties?
had a very filling lunch after church. i think i consumed half a plate of baby kailan. bleah. no one is pro-vegetable. for now.. i need a nap before venturing into the world of legislations.
Friday, November 18, 2005
it's the time of the year
when uni students cower in fear
hold their textbooks dear
so that concepts become clear!
dfd, law, stats and biochem
a unique blend for the pharmers this sem
from one-way anova to acetyl-coA carboxylase
not forgetting the many laws our state has put in place!
last but not least, the philo GEM
and the many definitions Socrates slams
plato, berlin, descartes, mill
adds to my life.. a paradoxical thrill!
therefore, it is plain to see
the amount of stress under which everyone happens to be
camping out in the li-bra-ry!
for what seems like eternity!
goodness gracious. i don't believe i penned all that down!
when uni students cower in fear
hold their textbooks dear
so that concepts become clear!
dfd, law, stats and biochem
a unique blend for the pharmers this sem
from one-way anova to acetyl-coA carboxylase
not forgetting the many laws our state has put in place!
last but not least, the philo GEM
and the many definitions Socrates slams
plato, berlin, descartes, mill
adds to my life.. a paradoxical thrill!
therefore, it is plain to see
the amount of stress under which everyone happens to be
camping out in the li-bra-ry!
for what seems like eternity!
goodness gracious. i don't believe i penned all that down!
Thursday, November 17, 2005
Tuesday, November 15, 2005
"Sometimes God answers 'yes' when i pray
Sometimes God answers 'wait' when i pray
Sometimes God answers 'no', all because He loves me so
But i know God always answers when i pray."
"I took you from the ends of the earth,
from its farthest corners I called you.
I said,'You are my servant';
I have chosen you and have not rejected you.
So do not fear, for I am with you;
do not be dismayed, for I am your God.
I will strengthen you and help you;
I will uphold you with My righteous right hand."
- Isaiah 41: 9-10
Sometimes God answers 'wait' when i pray
Sometimes God answers 'no', all because He loves me so
But i know God always answers when i pray."
"I took you from the ends of the earth,
from its farthest corners I called you.
I said,'You are my servant';
I have chosen you and have not rejected you.
So do not fear, for I am with you;
do not be dismayed, for I am your God.
I will strengthen you and help you;
I will uphold you with My righteous right hand."
- Isaiah 41: 9-10
Saturday, November 12, 2005
ode to my two friends, the tall one and the short one! ;)
HAPPY BIRTHDAY HUIXIAN AND SARAH!
we had dinner for them two hours ago.. was really fun. good break from studying too. and i had sarah fooled for one full day! hahaha.. but it was worth it, yes? :)
as usual, i made a collage! but of a few pictures only. heh...
HAPPY BIRTHDAY HUIXIAN AND SARAH!
we had dinner for them two hours ago.. was really fun. good break from studying too. and i had sarah fooled for one full day! hahaha.. but it was worth it, yes? :)
as usual, i made a collage! but of a few pictures only. heh...
Thursday, November 10, 2005
Tuesday, November 08, 2005
Monday, November 07, 2005
finally. CAs are over.. time to start preparing for the exams. i'm tired. :s
the next two months are gonna be two very crazy months. i'm already feeling like an elastic band stretched to its very maximum. a little bit more and it'll snap. ahh!
but, well, it will be an exciting journey ahead. :)
Long as my life shall last, teach me Thy way
Where'er my lot be cast, teach me Thy way
Until the race is run, until the journey's done
until the crown is won, teach me Thy way
the next two months are gonna be two very crazy months. i'm already feeling like an elastic band stretched to its very maximum. a little bit more and it'll snap. ahh!
but, well, it will be an exciting journey ahead. :)
Long as my life shall last, teach me Thy way
Where'er my lot be cast, teach me Thy way
Until the race is run, until the journey's done
until the crown is won, teach me Thy way
Thursday, November 03, 2005
"It is not the knowing but the holding of truth that marks someone as a disciple of Christ. Too often, Christians are knowledge rich, but application poor. We pride ourselves in having "right" doctrine, but without conviction - the kind that leads to commitment, competence, and character development - our lifestyles differ little from the cultural norm and don't even hint at Christ within us."
-Intentional Disciplemaking, Ron Bennett
sigh.. sad, but true.. a crisis that is hitting so many of us these days, myself included. :(
Lord, please have mercy and bring us beyond simply knowing Your Word to obeying it and living it out. Set us apart as Your disciples, that we may live lives worthy of You for Your glory alone. Amen.
-Intentional Disciplemaking, Ron Bennett
sigh.. sad, but true.. a crisis that is hitting so many of us these days, myself included. :(
Lord, please have mercy and bring us beyond simply knowing Your Word to obeying it and living it out. Set us apart as Your disciples, that we may live lives worthy of You for Your glory alone. Amen.
Tuesday, November 01, 2005
"Pass me not, O gentle Saviour,
Hear my humble cry;
While on others thou art calling,
Do not pass me by.
Saviour, Saviour, hear my humble cry;
While on others thou art calling,
Do not pass me by.
Let me at thy throne of mercy
Find a sweet relief;
Kneeling there in deep contrition,
Help my unbelief.
Trusting only in thy merit,
Would I seek thy face;
Heal my wounded, broken spirit,
Save me by thy grace.
Thou the Spring of all my comfort,
More than life to me,
Whom have I on earth beside thee?
Whom in heav'n but thee?"
Hear my humble cry;
While on others thou art calling,
Do not pass me by.
Saviour, Saviour, hear my humble cry;
While on others thou art calling,
Do not pass me by.
Let me at thy throne of mercy
Find a sweet relief;
Kneeling there in deep contrition,
Help my unbelief.
Trusting only in thy merit,
Would I seek thy face;
Heal my wounded, broken spirit,
Save me by thy grace.
Thou the Spring of all my comfort,
More than life to me,
Whom have I on earth beside thee?
Whom in heav'n but thee?"
Sunday, October 30, 2005
Friday, October 28, 2005
acknowledge. don't try. surrender, not strive. :)
was talking to eug today and he said something that really caused me to pause and think. the year just flew past like that, but time goes by so slowly. something like that. that was the most interesting paradox i'd ever heard. but hey, it's really true at times.
was talking to eug today and he said something that really caused me to pause and think. the year just flew past like that, but time goes by so slowly. something like that. that was the most interesting paradox i'd ever heard. but hey, it's really true at times.
Thursday, October 27, 2005
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celine tan has a new pet :) michelle lee gave it to her. haha.
adopt your own virtual pet! |
and we adopted lucas too.
Wednesday, October 26, 2005
"There is a higher throne
Than all this world has known
Where faithful ones from every tongue
Will one day come
Before the Son we'll stand
Made faultless through the Lamb
Believing hearts find promised grace
Salvation comes
Hear heaven's voices sing
Their thunderous anthem rings
Through emerald courts and sapphire skies
Their praises rise
All glory, wisdom, power
Strength, thanks and honour are
To God our King who reigns on high
Forevermore
And there we'll find our home
Our life before the throne
We'll honour Him in perfect song
Where we belong
He'll wipe each tear-stained eye
As thirst and hunger die
The Lamb becomes our Shepherd King
We'll reign with him."
- Higher Throne, Keith Getty & Kristyn Lennox
Was listening to this song while walking to piano this morning. It took my mind away from the here and now to the future. The call to focus on the eternal, not temporal. High, yet tough.
Than all this world has known
Where faithful ones from every tongue
Will one day come
Before the Son we'll stand
Made faultless through the Lamb
Believing hearts find promised grace
Salvation comes
Hear heaven's voices sing
Their thunderous anthem rings
Through emerald courts and sapphire skies
Their praises rise
All glory, wisdom, power
Strength, thanks and honour are
To God our King who reigns on high
Forevermore
And there we'll find our home
Our life before the throne
We'll honour Him in perfect song
Where we belong
He'll wipe each tear-stained eye
As thirst and hunger die
The Lamb becomes our Shepherd King
We'll reign with him."
- Higher Throne, Keith Getty & Kristyn Lennox
Was listening to this song while walking to piano this morning. It took my mind away from the here and now to the future. The call to focus on the eternal, not temporal. High, yet tough.
Sunday, October 23, 2005
i've been feeling very weird these few days. inadequate, in a sense. it's hard to put into words.. i just feel like the more i think i understand something, the more i actually don't. and it leaves me feeling so.. frustrated. i need God to show me....
Show me the way of the cross once again,
Denying myself for the love that I've gained
Everything's You now, everything's changed.
It's time You had my whole life;
You can have it all.
I've given like a beggar but lived like the rich
And crafted myself a more comfortable cross,
Yet what I am called to is deeper than this;
It's time You had my whole life;
You can have it all.
I resolve to give it all,
Some things must die,
Some things must live.
Not "What can I gain?"
But, "What can I give?"
If much is required when much is received
Then You can have my whole life;
Jesus have it all.
ran to mg today. we went inside for awhile. it's changed so much.. everything. i took pictures with my phone.. brought along with me a sense of nostalgia. i really miss that place.
Show me the way of the cross once again,
Denying myself for the love that I've gained
Everything's You now, everything's changed.
It's time You had my whole life;
You can have it all.
I've given like a beggar but lived like the rich
And crafted myself a more comfortable cross,
Yet what I am called to is deeper than this;
It's time You had my whole life;
You can have it all.
I resolve to give it all,
Some things must die,
Some things must live.
Not "What can I gain?"
But, "What can I give?"
If much is required when much is received
Then You can have my whole life;
Jesus have it all.
ran to mg today. we went inside for awhile. it's changed so much.. everything. i took pictures with my phone.. brought along with me a sense of nostalgia. i really miss that place.
Thursday, October 20, 2005
Wednesday, October 19, 2005
ugh.. i woke up this morning with a very scratchy throat. actually i woke up quite early, just lay in bed for a long time, thinking.. and thinking.. haha.
sigh. the after effects of a humongous carl's junior dinner, with 4 people who managed to fool me effortlessly about the uses of an air bag. :s and i had a burger and THREE packets of fries! cos i was hungry and hx and jw weren't really touching their fries! ahh!!!
by the time i got home last night, i was feeling so stoney and tired from all the laughing. seriously.. laughing too much makes u feel... really tired.. but it was honestly very fun lah. haha. :)
sigh. the after effects of a humongous carl's junior dinner, with 4 people who managed to fool me effortlessly about the uses of an air bag. :s and i had a burger and THREE packets of fries! cos i was hungry and hx and jw weren't really touching their fries! ahh!!!
by the time i got home last night, i was feeling so stoney and tired from all the laughing. seriously.. laughing too much makes u feel... really tired.. but it was honestly very fun lah. haha. :)
Saturday, October 15, 2005
just came back from my cousin's wedding. it was hilarious.. but i won't elaborate, cos it's quite mean. heh.
we were all hyper tonight. actually during the day too, but not as much as during the dinner. we were laughing at everything we could possibly laugh at.
well, in the midst of all the laughter, at the back of my mind, i was amazed at how we've all grown up. amazing. another cousin's getting married next year. soon it'll be my turn! (okok, not so soon... ) all that brought my mind back to our younger days. the genting highlands trip.. the family dinners.. time really flies. we don't meet each other often nowadays, but somehow, they seem to have a special place in my heart. heh.
we were all hyper tonight. actually during the day too, but not as much as during the dinner. we were laughing at everything we could possibly laugh at.
well, in the midst of all the laughter, at the back of my mind, i was amazed at how we've all grown up. amazing. another cousin's getting married next year. soon it'll be my turn! (okok, not so soon... ) all that brought my mind back to our younger days. the genting highlands trip.. the family dinners.. time really flies. we don't meet each other often nowadays, but somehow, they seem to have a special place in my heart. heh.
Thursday, October 13, 2005
Monday, October 10, 2005
i am staring blankly at my computer screen now.. trying to get started on work. have to do my lab reports and tutorial.. oh yes.. and resisting the urge to go on msn. hah.. fasting from it for a week.
just woke up.. today's dispensing test wiped out just about every bit of strength left in me. hmm.. although some of my preps turned out a little weird.. (like my suppositories.. again) im glad i managed to finish everything before five. the washing was another big headache. wool fat.. argh. but it's over! we were all exhausted, yet relieved.
back to work....
just woke up.. today's dispensing test wiped out just about every bit of strength left in me. hmm.. although some of my preps turned out a little weird.. (like my suppositories.. again) im glad i managed to finish everything before five. the washing was another big headache. wool fat.. argh. but it's over! we were all exhausted, yet relieved.
back to work....
Sunday, October 09, 2005
Saturday, October 08, 2005
Lord, how majestic You are,
my eyes meet Your gaze and my burden is lifted.
Your Word is a lamp to my feet,
Your hand swift to bless and Your banner a shield.
You are my everything,
You who made earth and sky and sea,
all that You've placed inside of me
calls out Your Name.
To You I bow,
the King who commands my every breath,
the Man who has conquered sin and death,
my Lord and my King,
my everything!
Lord, how resplendent You are,
when I think of Your heavens,
the work of Your fingers
what is man, that You are mindful of him,
yet You've crowned him with glory
and caused him to reign..
Thursday, October 06, 2005
The three of us sat in the canteen today, for two whole hours, just talking. oblivious to the people around us.. not really bothering about the time or stuff we had to do. just talked.. about going on a holiday.. possible destinations, ideal scenarios, things to do after the exams, eating dim sum. It was so nice.. there was a nice cool breeze, none of us wanted to move.. just wanted to carry on our conversation and sit there forever. Until 2 o clock.. when reality finally hit.
i realise, i really do need a holiday, or a break at least. i am so tired. really wish someone'd just take me away for a few days.. just to relax.
but, thank you the two of you. those two hours today were the best part of the week for me. i enjoyed just sitting there, being able to speak my mind without the fear of being judged or being chided for saying silly things. enjoyed the fellowship, the nonsense, albeit "digging my own grave" sometimes. haha. and i really thank God for two wonderful sisters like you. :)
i realise, i really do need a holiday, or a break at least. i am so tired. really wish someone'd just take me away for a few days.. just to relax.
but, thank you the two of you. those two hours today were the best part of the week for me. i enjoyed just sitting there, being able to speak my mind without the fear of being judged or being chided for saying silly things. enjoyed the fellowship, the nonsense, albeit "digging my own grave" sometimes. haha. and i really thank God for two wonderful sisters like you. :)
Friday, September 30, 2005
heh.. i'm back after a loooooooooong day! had a long day at sch.. and then prayer meeting! church was buzzing with activity in the afternoon cos the j1s came to study.
and prayer meeting was good, as always. :) one thing that struck me.. to have roots and wings.. roots to be rooted strongly in God.. and wings to soar..
realised also.. in school today that every semester, dynamics change so much. i guess there's good and bad to it. in a sense i've learnt to be more independent.. but it's sad, cos the ppl you were once close to aren't as close anymore? oh well.. i guess it only brings me to a realisation that the only constant in our lives is God. and how we really need to depend on Him..
yesterday.. was walking in the eusoff carpark with mich.. we were talking and talking.. and it was windy.. then we saw the leaves falling from the trees like rain.. it was so nice.. like..... autumn in NUS! hahahaha!!
and prayer meeting was good, as always. :) one thing that struck me.. to have roots and wings.. roots to be rooted strongly in God.. and wings to soar..
realised also.. in school today that every semester, dynamics change so much. i guess there's good and bad to it. in a sense i've learnt to be more independent.. but it's sad, cos the ppl you were once close to aren't as close anymore? oh well.. i guess it only brings me to a realisation that the only constant in our lives is God. and how we really need to depend on Him..
yesterday.. was walking in the eusoff carpark with mich.. we were talking and talking.. and it was windy.. then we saw the leaves falling from the trees like rain.. it was so nice.. like..... autumn in NUS! hahahaha!!
Wednesday, September 28, 2005
i just got home from a major pig-out session with sarah at ikea!! ahhh!!! it started with an innocent craving for spaghetti and meatballs.. (must be the liquorice in lab) and we ended up there.. eating ALOT! took photos of the before and after state of the plates.. when they were full and when they were completely wiped out! ah.. sinful yet satisfying. heh..
while we were on our way out to the bus stop.. we started talking about cravings.. (again) and we were laughing over how next time after we get married.. the men in our lives would be running all over singapore to satisfy our hunger pangs. hahahahahahahahaha.. quite nonsensical we were..
anyway, i need to exercise! cos i learnt during lecture on monday that the fat we consume goes directly to our adipose tissues! haha.. and someone (bleah) commented today that i look chunkier! (!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!)
while we were on our way out to the bus stop.. we started talking about cravings.. (again) and we were laughing over how next time after we get married.. the men in our lives would be running all over singapore to satisfy our hunger pangs. hahahahahahahahaha.. quite nonsensical we were..
anyway, i need to exercise! cos i learnt during lecture on monday that the fat we consume goes directly to our adipose tissues! haha.. and someone (bleah) commented today that i look chunkier! (!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!)
haha.. i've been concentrating so much on my paper the past few days.. now that it's finally done.. i'm feeling abit lost. haha.. much more to be done, but i dunno which to start with! hmm.. maybe i should finish writing my half-written letter first!
well, back to school again and this half term will probably be more hectic than the next.. i feel as if i'm doing six modules sometimes. but ya.. thankfully i've managed to really sit still before God each day. and it's then that i realise how much He's been working in our lives.
well, back to school again and this half term will probably be more hectic than the next.. i feel as if i'm doing six modules sometimes. but ya.. thankfully i've managed to really sit still before God each day. and it's then that i realise how much He's been working in our lives.
Saturday, September 24, 2005
trying to keep myself awake while reading articles from this website that'll help me for my philo paper. the topics are quite interesting but im just quite sleepy now.. *yawn* haha.. and our 4 day break just flew past like that. but thank God for it. was rather refreshed, although abit fearful of the hectic next-half-of-the-sem ahead.
the past few days have been busy, though fun. thought-provoking too, as i rethink and evaluate my role in the youth.
was at marche's today with the 85s.. and i did the same thing i always do everytime i go to marche's... pile the plate sky-high with stir-fried vegetables i can buy at the market!!!
pharm law lect was cancelled today as well! managed to get some research done for the paper i'm supposed to write for my diploma exam.. i must say the central library really has good music resource books. the next thing i gotta do is to read them!
back to my philo paper....
the past few days have been busy, though fun. thought-provoking too, as i rethink and evaluate my role in the youth.
was at marche's today with the 85s.. and i did the same thing i always do everytime i go to marche's... pile the plate sky-high with stir-fried vegetables i can buy at the market!!!
pharm law lect was cancelled today as well! managed to get some research done for the paper i'm supposed to write for my diploma exam.. i must say the central library really has good music resource books. the next thing i gotta do is to read them!
back to my philo paper....
Monday, September 19, 2005
Saturday, September 17, 2005
haha yay! i like my new desktop background. dunno if it can be seen though. cos the html aint' appearing.
been terribly mood swingy these days. REALLY terrible.. argh.
anyway the song below.. its lyrics are so meaningful. the two verses that struck me, though, were what hilmay called the "sad" verses. verses 3 and 4.. i dunno. they just struck me. that's how beautiful unconditional love is.
When love is found and hope comes home,
Sing and be glad that two are one.
When love explodes and fills the sky,
Praise God and share our Maker's joy.
When love has flow'red in trust and care,
Build both each day that love may dare
To reach beyond home's warmth and light,
To serve and strive for truth and right.
When love is tried as loved-ones change,
Hold still to hope though all seems strange,
Till ease returns and love grows wise
Through list'ning ears and opened eyes.
When love is torn and trust betrayed,
Pray strength to love, till torments fade,
Till lovers keep no score of wrong
But hear through pain love's Easter song.
Praise God for love, praise God for life,
In age or youth, in calm or strife,
Lift up your hearts let love be fed
Through death and life in broken bread.
Sing and be glad that two are one.
When love explodes and fills the sky,
Praise God and share our Maker's joy.
When love has flow'red in trust and care,
Build both each day that love may dare
To reach beyond home's warmth and light,
To serve and strive for truth and right.
When love is tried as loved-ones change,
Hold still to hope though all seems strange,
Till ease returns and love grows wise
Through list'ning ears and opened eyes.
When love is torn and trust betrayed,
Pray strength to love, till torments fade,
Till lovers keep no score of wrong
But hear through pain love's Easter song.
Praise God for love, praise God for life,
In age or youth, in calm or strife,
Lift up your hearts let love be fed
Through death and life in broken bread.
Thursday, September 15, 2005
5 minutes ago, i switched on my tv for the first time in.. at least 10 days? woahs! shows how long i haven't watched tv, and that didn't hit me until the other day when i was in the bus staring blankly at tv mobile. haha. sarah and shiwei are gonna laugh at me, cos i was talking abt watching tv the whole day today. :s
anyway, my biochem test is finally over! all that studying, just for 45 minutes and 25 mcqs! but well, i take it i'm studying for the exams and well, those reactions and pathways are rather interesting anyway. it's just not very easy to link them all up, and once you do, it can get confusing. i find i'm enjoying my modules more this semester than the last two. it's much more applicable to the profession and labs are more like cooking lessons. (until you realise you have lab reports to complete, that is)
yeah. but hectic, my schedule is. so hectic that i'm very physically tired now. desperately in need for a break. very timely, cos as of tomorrow, i'm on ALMOST one week of holiday!
spent my whole evening today sifting through old letters and cards. it started with the search for chew wee and may fern's wedding bulletin. never found it, but instead i found other sorts of buried treasure. heh.. it's nice to sit back once in awhile and reminisce. realised i've lost touch with so many people, especially the mg ones. sigh.. people who meant so much to me in the past, i hardly know what they're doing now. :s i'm really bad at keeping in touch with people. so, if i haven't talked to you in a long time, holler!!
anyway, my biochem test is finally over! all that studying, just for 45 minutes and 25 mcqs! but well, i take it i'm studying for the exams and well, those reactions and pathways are rather interesting anyway. it's just not very easy to link them all up, and once you do, it can get confusing. i find i'm enjoying my modules more this semester than the last two. it's much more applicable to the profession and labs are more like cooking lessons. (until you realise you have lab reports to complete, that is)
yeah. but hectic, my schedule is. so hectic that i'm very physically tired now. desperately in need for a break. very timely, cos as of tomorrow, i'm on ALMOST one week of holiday!
spent my whole evening today sifting through old letters and cards. it started with the search for chew wee and may fern's wedding bulletin. never found it, but instead i found other sorts of buried treasure. heh.. it's nice to sit back once in awhile and reminisce. realised i've lost touch with so many people, especially the mg ones. sigh.. people who meant so much to me in the past, i hardly know what they're doing now. :s i'm really bad at keeping in touch with people. so, if i haven't talked to you in a long time, holler!!
Tuesday, September 13, 2005
Monday, September 12, 2005
sigh. just got home. what a sad day.
i discovered during biochem lecture that my precious blue penguin is lost!! must have dropped from my bag. :( but i'll go hunt for it. hopefully it's somewhere in the house.
had a horrendous experience coming home from school today. there was a thunderstorm. at first it was quite funny, cos sarah and i were screaming and gasping everytime the lightning flashed. then we went in separate direction. i went to the marine parade bus stop to wait for the number 15 bus, which never came!
it wasn't too bad at first, except that i felt like a complete fool, the only person who was covering her ears at the bus stop and whining everytime there was a loud clap of thunder. but as i stood there, the rain just got heavier and the thunder just got louder. so did my stomach. i felt like a little kid facing the big thunder monster alone. haha.. but honestly, i was so scared i felt like crying. oops. :s
ended up boarding the 966 and stopping somewhere further away from home. i ran home, anticipating kfc for dinner, but aaah!! my mum forgot the kfc number. so i ended up eating bread and hotdogs.
well, despite not having a filling dinner, being at home has never felt so comforting before. haha. at least im sheltered from the perils of thunder!
i discovered during biochem lecture that my precious blue penguin is lost!! must have dropped from my bag. :( but i'll go hunt for it. hopefully it's somewhere in the house.
had a horrendous experience coming home from school today. there was a thunderstorm. at first it was quite funny, cos sarah and i were screaming and gasping everytime the lightning flashed. then we went in separate direction. i went to the marine parade bus stop to wait for the number 15 bus, which never came!
it wasn't too bad at first, except that i felt like a complete fool, the only person who was covering her ears at the bus stop and whining everytime there was a loud clap of thunder. but as i stood there, the rain just got heavier and the thunder just got louder. so did my stomach. i felt like a little kid facing the big thunder monster alone. haha.. but honestly, i was so scared i felt like crying. oops. :s
ended up boarding the 966 and stopping somewhere further away from home. i ran home, anticipating kfc for dinner, but aaah!! my mum forgot the kfc number. so i ended up eating bread and hotdogs.
well, despite not having a filling dinner, being at home has never felt so comforting before. haha. at least im sheltered from the perils of thunder!
Saturday, September 10, 2005
instead of going for the tri-fac bash last night, i found myself bashing through my books! aah! sorry jenxi and all the dance ppl! show me a video of your dance ok!
studied till 1 last night, then i woke up and made my way to piano lesson, feeling very groggy. my piano teacher was quite upset with me today, cos he felt i wasn't being musical and expressive enough. which was true. i was terribly sleepy, not entirely woken up yet. :s and yeah, he set me a task. to go and research on the lives of the three composers and imagine them playing those pieces. (he was terribly appalled that i couldn't remember how brahms looked like!)
yeah, it's true. i need more passion!!! i think my busy life as a pharmer has wiped out some of my passion for music. but that's no excuse, i'll have to work at it! and work at understanding brahms, britten and hadyn better. heh.
on a very different note, im sitting here with the Bible open in front of me. msged mich the wrong verse just now, but hey. this verse really serves as a reminder. it doesn't really link much to the rest of my entry, but somehow it made me pause to think about God for a moment.
You see, at just the right time, when we were still powerless, Christ died for the ungodly. Very rarely will anyone die for a righteous man, though for a good man someone might possibly dare to die. But God demonstrates His own love for us in this: While we were still sinners, Christ died for us." - Romans 5: 6-8
wow.
studied till 1 last night, then i woke up and made my way to piano lesson, feeling very groggy. my piano teacher was quite upset with me today, cos he felt i wasn't being musical and expressive enough. which was true. i was terribly sleepy, not entirely woken up yet. :s and yeah, he set me a task. to go and research on the lives of the three composers and imagine them playing those pieces. (he was terribly appalled that i couldn't remember how brahms looked like!)
yeah, it's true. i need more passion!!! i think my busy life as a pharmer has wiped out some of my passion for music. but that's no excuse, i'll have to work at it! and work at understanding brahms, britten and hadyn better. heh.
on a very different note, im sitting here with the Bible open in front of me. msged mich the wrong verse just now, but hey. this verse really serves as a reminder. it doesn't really link much to the rest of my entry, but somehow it made me pause to think about God for a moment.
You see, at just the right time, when we were still powerless, Christ died for the ungodly. Very rarely will anyone die for a righteous man, though for a good man someone might possibly dare to die. But God demonstrates His own love for us in this: While we were still sinners, Christ died for us." - Romans 5: 6-8
wow.
Thursday, September 08, 2005
decided to blog while printing my SDL project. i'm so happy it's finally done! one project down, many more to come! haha..not to mention my biochem test next wk!
well, yeah. i've been so busy and tired.. trying to cope with schoolwork and practising my piano more regularly cos my dip exam's coming up after my uni exams! and so many times during the week, i felt so weak and unable to cope. but truly, as written in 2 Corinthians, God's grace is sufficient for me and His strength is made perfect in my weakness.
as i reflected today, i realised that all that busyness and feeling weak has brought me to a realisation that i can't rely on my own strength cos by that, i'd probably burn out soon. and it's only that which made me realise the importance of relying on God. so, maybe feeling weak and helpless ain't so bad after all!!
well, yeah. i've been so busy and tired.. trying to cope with schoolwork and practising my piano more regularly cos my dip exam's coming up after my uni exams! and so many times during the week, i felt so weak and unable to cope. but truly, as written in 2 Corinthians, God's grace is sufficient for me and His strength is made perfect in my weakness.
as i reflected today, i realised that all that busyness and feeling weak has brought me to a realisation that i can't rely on my own strength cos by that, i'd probably burn out soon. and it's only that which made me realise the importance of relying on God. so, maybe feeling weak and helpless ain't so bad after all!!
Tuesday, September 06, 2005
ok, everyone read this article. i read this today during my lunch break. :s but anyway, too tired to comment now. it's been a crazy week in school.
Saturday, September 03, 2005
praise night 2005. definitely a night to remember. many songs were sung, various items presented, everyone enjoyed the time of worship. meanwhile, many thoughts were lingering in my head. it started with the juniors item.. before that i was just scrambling around, trying to keep my scores on the piano. (they were flying all around) besides thinking about how cute the children were, how enthusiastically they were doing their actions, i was drawn to the lyrics of the songs they sang.
"In the morning when i wake, You will hear my voice, O Lord. In the morning when i wake, i prepare a prayer for You. In the morning when i wake, i watch and wait for You."
that's what i want to learn. waiting on God, being still before God when i wake up.
youth item. as i gazed at them singing and dancing while conducting, i was touched. albeit being tickled by the guys during the afternoon rehearsal, watching these youths sing their hearts for God not only warmed my heart, but reminded me that hey.. Christ is coming back for us again. look towards the year of jubilee, where we will be free from the slavery of sin.
"Behold He comes, riding on the clouds, shining like the sun, at the trumpet call. so lift your voice, it's the year of jubilee, out of zion's hill salvation comes."
praise night brought me back to think about the wonder of music. how there is just something about music that seems to connect us so easily to God in worship. God created music, and He must have had a purpose for doing so. and really, thank God for music because it's become so much a part of me. the challenge for us, however, is worshipping God not just with music on sundays, but with our lives every single day of the week! trying to glorify God in the mundane things. and i believe, that's also what God desires of us.
well, i'm tired. it's been a long day. long and good. now, it's time to rest!
"In the morning when i wake, You will hear my voice, O Lord. In the morning when i wake, i prepare a prayer for You. In the morning when i wake, i watch and wait for You."
that's what i want to learn. waiting on God, being still before God when i wake up.
youth item. as i gazed at them singing and dancing while conducting, i was touched. albeit being tickled by the guys during the afternoon rehearsal, watching these youths sing their hearts for God not only warmed my heart, but reminded me that hey.. Christ is coming back for us again. look towards the year of jubilee, where we will be free from the slavery of sin.
"Behold He comes, riding on the clouds, shining like the sun, at the trumpet call. so lift your voice, it's the year of jubilee, out of zion's hill salvation comes."
praise night brought me back to think about the wonder of music. how there is just something about music that seems to connect us so easily to God in worship. God created music, and He must have had a purpose for doing so. and really, thank God for music because it's become so much a part of me. the challenge for us, however, is worshipping God not just with music on sundays, but with our lives every single day of the week! trying to glorify God in the mundane things. and i believe, that's also what God desires of us.
well, i'm tired. it's been a long day. long and good. now, it's time to rest!
Thursday, September 01, 2005
was taking some time to reflect today.. so many times we are easily dissatisfied with our lives, with the situation we're in, with the people we have to interact with, with the things we have to do. (homework, projects, tutorials!!!) but hey.. we fail to realise that everyday is a gift from God. the very fact that we wake up in the morning everyday is something we ought to thank God for and not take for granted. and once u realise that, life takes on a whole new perspective.
Wednesday, August 31, 2005
downloaded picasa the other night, and started making collages! this one's kinda squarish.. i shall start learning to use adobe photoshop soon. but anyhow, this is one of the nicer ones.
sigh. the past day has been kinda tough. well, back to reading about suppositories. if not, my mould will turn out as disastrous as it did on monday. i guess no one would want to shove varied colour suppositories up their system, would they?
Saturday, August 27, 2005
just got back from my grandfather's birthday dinner. it was a really good time, time well-spent catching up with my cousins. we reminisced about the past and my brother's little mishaps with prawn and prawn sauce, watched commando ian finish up the food, talked to my mischievous little cousin about school.. (he was teaching us some new way to do multiplication. although it really seems more difficult to me. :s) and we managed to catch up a little with each other.
i guess over the years, these tri-annual meetings have caused us to treasure the time we have with each other more. seeing them so few times a year makes me feel sad about how i used to take them for granted. now the dinners and bbqs we have mean so much more to me.
the food was overloaded with msg though. gave me a headache!
i guess over the years, these tri-annual meetings have caused us to treasure the time we have with each other more. seeing them so few times a year makes me feel sad about how i used to take them for granted. now the dinners and bbqs we have mean so much more to me.
the food was overloaded with msg though. gave me a headache!
Wednesday, August 24, 2005
on the way to the twins' house this morning, my brother dropped me at the normanton park bus stop so i could take a bus from there. as i looked around at my surroundings, a wave of nostalgia swept over me, for this is where i grew up, where i spent the first 15 years of my life. i peered over the fence, staring into the dimly-lit void decks of blocks 4 and 5 as snippets of my life flashed briefly through my mind. the times where we would play hide-and-seek and catching all round the estate, sometimes going as far as kent ridge park, my turtles! i vaguely remember keeping them, and when they got too big for the tank, we'd walk to the park and release them into the pond. and then there was the supermarket, where we could buy all our favourite sweets on credit, the playgrounds and exercise areas, the hairdresser, gift shop. wow..so many other precious memories. normanton was like a kampong in those days.
as i stood there and gazed through the fence, i came to a realisation that so much had changed during the short span of 5 years away from normanton. i, for one, have changed so much. time really flies.. part of me longed to go back to the simple, yet happy childhood i spent at this place. haha.. but yeah, we gotta keep moving and growing. :)
heh, my bro and i at our blk 1 flat!
as i stood there and gazed through the fence, i came to a realisation that so much had changed during the short span of 5 years away from normanton. i, for one, have changed so much. time really flies.. part of me longed to go back to the simple, yet happy childhood i spent at this place. haha.. but yeah, we gotta keep moving and growing. :)
heh, my bro and i at our blk 1 flat!
Wednesday, August 17, 2005
Monday, August 15, 2005
i am soooooooooooooo exhausted now! just had the most traumatising dispensing practical i had in a long time. and guess what? it's our first for this sem! 8 more to go! ask any pharm group b ppl and they'd agree with me. lab was a madhouse today. and im thinking i REALLY need to prepare for lab nowadays, cos the demands are much greater. it's a good thing though, i guess it'll push me to work harder.
another long day tmr, and many things to be done. but yeah.. was reading 2 Peter 1 today. "His divine power has given us everything we need for life and godliness through our knowledge of Him, who called us by His own glory and goodness. Through these, He has given us His very great and precious promises, so that through them you may participate in the divine nature and escape the corruption in the world caused by evil desires." hey! praise God cos His divine power has provided for our every need, including and especially in living a holy life that pleases God. keeping my eyes on God. that's what i need to do..
another long day tmr, and many things to be done. but yeah.. was reading 2 Peter 1 today. "His divine power has given us everything we need for life and godliness through our knowledge of Him, who called us by His own glory and goodness. Through these, He has given us His very great and precious promises, so that through them you may participate in the divine nature and escape the corruption in the world caused by evil desires." hey! praise God cos His divine power has provided for our every need, including and especially in living a holy life that pleases God. keeping my eyes on God. that's what i need to do..
Saturday, August 13, 2005
Tuesday, August 09, 2005
today there was this msg going around via sms that there would be a 40% discount on petrol prices during the 4 o clock hour. the moment my dad heard it, he said it was a sure fraud. just now, i went to pump petrol and buy groceries for my mum. to my horror, i found such a long queue of cars at the petrol station, then i remembered the 40% discount myth. took me so long to get into the station itself.
when i finally stepped into ntuc to buy whatever i needed, everyone was cursing and swearing.. lamenting that they got cheated by that particular sms. oh well, let's face it. singaporeans are kiasu.
when i finally stepped into ntuc to buy whatever i needed, everyone was cursing and swearing.. lamenting that they got cheated by that particular sms. oh well, let's face it. singaporeans are kiasu.
first day of school.. heh. had a long day! LSM lecture.. peiru and i resolved to listen attentively this sem, and i think we did a pretty good job today, yeah? :) i started to lose focus abit towards the end cos by then, i was quite brain tired. well, our actual lecturer was sick, so this "aunty" lecturer took over. but all in all, i felt quite accomplished and resolved to go home to read up abit more.
well, after that, i followed chen may back to her hall cos she said her friend could give me a lift to buona vista on his lorry! initially, i wanted to ride at the back, but seeing that i kinda had to fight for space with fire extinguishers which weren't really secured to the lorry properly, i decided not to. was quite interesting, seeing what her hall did for rag.. visiting her new room and pebble again! he's grown so big.. so has the cage. heh.
met mich, bryan, jeremy, yin and yiling at ps after that for lunch. and while they went to watch a movie, i shopped! walked around looking out for birthday presents and walked into times bookstore. i picked up this book "what God wants" and started flipping through it. hmmm.. was pretty disturbed after that by what i read in that book. hah. i shall not elaborate. ask me if you wanna know!
well, after that, i followed chen may back to her hall cos she said her friend could give me a lift to buona vista on his lorry! initially, i wanted to ride at the back, but seeing that i kinda had to fight for space with fire extinguishers which weren't really secured to the lorry properly, i decided not to. was quite interesting, seeing what her hall did for rag.. visiting her new room and pebble again! he's grown so big.. so has the cage. heh.
met mich, bryan, jeremy, yin and yiling at ps after that for lunch. and while they went to watch a movie, i shopped! walked around looking out for birthday presents and walked into times bookstore. i picked up this book "what God wants" and started flipping through it. hmmm.. was pretty disturbed after that by what i read in that book. hah. i shall not elaborate. ask me if you wanna know!
Saturday, August 06, 2005
"An endless stream of pilgrims
Made their way into Jerusalem,
To offer up the goat, the lamb, and dove.
Atonement for their sin was made,
But only for a season;
And still their empty hearts cried out
For a lasting peace and love.
And then from Bethlehem He came,
Emmanuel was His name;
He knew the world would need a sacrifice.
And a million lambs could never pay the price.
Once and for all,
He walked the road to Calvary,
Carrying the sins of ev'ry man upon His shoulders.
Once and for all,
He conquered death victoriously,
Tearing down the separating wall.
The price was paid in full once and for all.
An endless stream of mercy
Falls like rain from heaven's holy throne,
To everyone who calls upon His grace.
And tho' we all were sinners
He loved beyond our weaknesses;
Though we were unworthy,
He came to suffer in our place.
And as His blood fell to the ground,
Our hope again was found;
No longer are we guilty and oppressed,
For He has thrown our sin as far as east is from west.
Once and for all,
He walked the road to Calvary,
Carrying the sins of every man upon His shoulders.
Once and for all
He conquered death victoriously,
Tearing down the separating wall.
The price was paid in full once and for all."
This song really spoke to me today. As I listened to it in the car, somehow God's mercy and immeasurable love just overwhelmed me. I've been feeling so tired the past few days, thank God this song lifted my spirits abit.
Made their way into Jerusalem,
To offer up the goat, the lamb, and dove.
Atonement for their sin was made,
But only for a season;
And still their empty hearts cried out
For a lasting peace and love.
And then from Bethlehem He came,
Emmanuel was His name;
He knew the world would need a sacrifice.
And a million lambs could never pay the price.
Once and for all,
He walked the road to Calvary,
Carrying the sins of ev'ry man upon His shoulders.
Once and for all,
He conquered death victoriously,
Tearing down the separating wall.
The price was paid in full once and for all.
An endless stream of mercy
Falls like rain from heaven's holy throne,
To everyone who calls upon His grace.
And tho' we all were sinners
He loved beyond our weaknesses;
Though we were unworthy,
He came to suffer in our place.
And as His blood fell to the ground,
Our hope again was found;
No longer are we guilty and oppressed,
For He has thrown our sin as far as east is from west.
Once and for all,
He walked the road to Calvary,
Carrying the sins of every man upon His shoulders.
Once and for all
He conquered death victoriously,
Tearing down the separating wall.
The price was paid in full once and for all."
This song really spoke to me today. As I listened to it in the car, somehow God's mercy and immeasurable love just overwhelmed me. I've been feeling so tired the past few days, thank God this song lifted my spirits abit.
Thursday, August 04, 2005
"It was God who made us different, and He did it on purpose. God created male and female, the male to call forth, to lead, initiate and rule, and the female to respond, follow, adapt, submit. Even if we held to a different theory of origin, the physical structure of the female would tell us that woman was made to receive, to bear, to be acted upon, to complement, to nourish." - "Let me be a woman", Elisabeth Elliot.
Actually, I do agree with that. heh. comments, anybody?
Actually, I do agree with that. heh. comments, anybody?
Tuesday, August 02, 2005
"Who am I?
That the Lord of all the earth,
Would care to know my name,
Would care to feel my hurt,
Who am I?
That the Bright and Morning Star,
Would choose to light the way,
For my ever wandering heart,
Not because of who I am,
But because of what You've done,
Not because of what I've done,
But because of who You are,
I am a flower quickly fading,
Here today and gone tomorrow,
A wave tossed in the ocean (ocean),
A vapor in the wind,
Still You hear me when I'm calling,
Lord, You catch me when I'm falling,
And You've told me who I am..
I am Yours.
Who am I?
That the eyes that see my sin,
Would look on me with love,
and watch me rise again,
Who am I?
That the voice that calmed the sea,
Would call out through the rain,
And calm the storm in me,
Not because of who I am,
But because of what You've done,
Not because of what I've done,
But because of who You are,
I am a flower quickly fading,
Here today and gone tomorrow,
A wave tossed in the ocean (ocean),
A vapor in the wind,
Still You hear me when I'm calling,
Lord, You catch me when I'm falling,
And You've told me who I am...
I am Yours, I am Yours.
I am Yours,
Whom shall I fear?
Whom shall I fear?
'Cause I am Yours,
I am Yours."
Saturday, July 30, 2005
Friday, July 29, 2005
just got back from prayer meeting. it was utterly refreshing, and truly, there's so much to thank God for! i still remember before prayer meeting, was telling some of the aunties in the office that if i didn't have to play, i'd have gone home instead cos i was so tired and zonked from last night's gathering at shiqi's place! (uh, although i think i slept the most out of all of us)
nevertheless, thank God i stayed, because i was truly blessed to see how God is working in our community. zachary and his family went up to share, soo yeong shared from 1 peter, spent some time sharing thanksgiving items with daniel ng.. and got to pray with my mentoring gals. all in all, i'd say i was blessed so much more than i could ever give. thank God for that!
heh.. but i am quite tired now.. wanted to post up some pictures from the og outing the other day.. but too tired.. shall do it another day, maybe tmr! og outing on wed was fun.. haha we went bowling and kite flying. and peiru and i kept encouraging each other by insisting we had to beat junwei's score! (haha....)and we did, in a way. (right peiru?)
nevertheless, thank God i stayed, because i was truly blessed to see how God is working in our community. zachary and his family went up to share, soo yeong shared from 1 peter, spent some time sharing thanksgiving items with daniel ng.. and got to pray with my mentoring gals. all in all, i'd say i was blessed so much more than i could ever give. thank God for that!
heh.. but i am quite tired now.. wanted to post up some pictures from the og outing the other day.. but too tired.. shall do it another day, maybe tmr! og outing on wed was fun.. haha we went bowling and kite flying. and peiru and i kept encouraging each other by insisting we had to beat junwei's score! (haha....)and we did, in a way. (right peiru?)
Wednesday, July 27, 2005
hmm.. met ms tan today. it was good.. just talking to her and catching up with her. airing my views.. telling her things.. listening to her viewpoint. and she hasn't changed all that much, except that yeah she probably grew older, and more tired. but nonetheless, just as wise as she's always been. :)
what disturbed me though, was what she shared with me abt ms goh.. about how she really doesn't have much time left.. how frail she is now and how the doctors told her to be prepared to go anytime. i ought to go back to mg and visit her soon.. before it's too late. sigh.. that's the thing abt relationships. we don't treasure them till they're taken from us. all i can pray for now is that she'll come to a realisation of how much she needs God and come to accept Him, before it's too late.
what disturbed me though, was what she shared with me abt ms goh.. about how she really doesn't have much time left.. how frail she is now and how the doctors told her to be prepared to go anytime. i ought to go back to mg and visit her soon.. before it's too late. sigh.. that's the thing abt relationships. we don't treasure them till they're taken from us. all i can pray for now is that she'll come to a realisation of how much she needs God and come to accept Him, before it's too late.
Saturday, July 23, 2005
Thursday, July 21, 2005
it's been a tiring past few days.. right now, all i wanna do after this is to crash into my bed and sleep! zzzzz... but yeah.. felt the need to blog cos there are really so many things to thank God for.
yesterday night, i just found out that one of the freshmen who's coming to pharm, and who's a guy, is a christian! truly an answer to our prayers! finally, a brother who can reach out to the guys in pharm.
hmm.. also thank God for the sisters whom i have along with me in pharm, namely sarah and shiwei. well, it's gonna be another tough term, where we have to make a clear stand on certain issues, and truly be salt and light in the midst of all the darkness. but thank God for people who're walking alongside and praying alongside, who face the same struggles and fears as me, because we can constantly encourage and uphold each other!
thank God also for the church ppl who're coming to nus! finally i have company! hahaha.. mich, yokes and lucas! more time for prayer and fellowship.. heh.
just these few thanksgiving items alone makes me feel more excited about the new semester ahead. and the sole assurance from romans 8 that NOTHING can separate us from the love of Christ..
yesterday night, i just found out that one of the freshmen who's coming to pharm, and who's a guy, is a christian! truly an answer to our prayers! finally, a brother who can reach out to the guys in pharm.
hmm.. also thank God for the sisters whom i have along with me in pharm, namely sarah and shiwei. well, it's gonna be another tough term, where we have to make a clear stand on certain issues, and truly be salt and light in the midst of all the darkness. but thank God for people who're walking alongside and praying alongside, who face the same struggles and fears as me, because we can constantly encourage and uphold each other!
thank God also for the church ppl who're coming to nus! finally i have company! hahaha.. mich, yokes and lucas! more time for prayer and fellowship.. heh.
just these few thanksgiving items alone makes me feel more excited about the new semester ahead. and the sole assurance from romans 8 that NOTHING can separate us from the love of Christ..
Friday, July 15, 2005
Thursday, July 14, 2005
*phew* im so tired now! it's been an eventful past few days.. alpha intro dinner.. pharm camp and mentoring just now. i've done much, seen much, learnt much. now i just need to rest more! was supposed to go visit debbie and her kids, elliot and faith, but i was coughing so much i decided not to, lest i pass my cough and sore throat to them.
pharm camp was really fun. my only regret is not going for the camp earlier, but my legs and hands broke out in rash, so i decided not to join them at sentosa. well, had lots of fun last night playing twister and got to know a few juniors.. generally i stuck with jenxi's og.. peiru and janice followed that og as well.. we played twister until we got all twisted. :S then walked over to chalet L to check out what was going on there.. there were ppl watching tv in the living room, playing indian poker in the room and having a mini-bash in another room. very happening place indeed.. but i went straight for the leftovers from dinner. janice joined me, and then slowly people started devouring the food. heh..
headed down to changi beach after that, passing by changi village on the way.. and we saw something i didn't really wanna see!! :s i think everyone can generally guess what. well, i scurried past them and headed straight for the pathway leading to the beach. the sky was so clear last night, there were so many stars! spent my time there talking to janice.. well, it was time well spent. :)
slept at abt 430.. i was so tired when i got back to the chalet i just collapsed into my sleeping bag and overslept the next morning.. was supposed to help make milo. heh.. oops! all in all, i had fun getting to know new ppl and spending time with my friends whom i hardly saw during the holidays..:)
pharm camp was really fun. my only regret is not going for the camp earlier, but my legs and hands broke out in rash, so i decided not to join them at sentosa. well, had lots of fun last night playing twister and got to know a few juniors.. generally i stuck with jenxi's og.. peiru and janice followed that og as well.. we played twister until we got all twisted. :S then walked over to chalet L to check out what was going on there.. there were ppl watching tv in the living room, playing indian poker in the room and having a mini-bash in another room. very happening place indeed.. but i went straight for the leftovers from dinner. janice joined me, and then slowly people started devouring the food. heh..
headed down to changi beach after that, passing by changi village on the way.. and we saw something i didn't really wanna see!! :s i think everyone can generally guess what. well, i scurried past them and headed straight for the pathway leading to the beach. the sky was so clear last night, there were so many stars! spent my time there talking to janice.. well, it was time well spent. :)
slept at abt 430.. i was so tired when i got back to the chalet i just collapsed into my sleeping bag and overslept the next morning.. was supposed to help make milo. heh.. oops! all in all, i had fun getting to know new ppl and spending time with my friends whom i hardly saw during the holidays..:)
Friday, July 08, 2005
"Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. It is not rude, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs. Love does not delight in evil, but rejoices in the truth. It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres. Love never fails. But where there are prophecies, they will cease; where there are tongues, they will be stilled; where there is knowledge, it will pass away." -1 Corinthians 13:4-8
wow. such is the measure of God's love. i have a loooooong way to go.
wow. such is the measure of God's love. i have a loooooong way to go.
forgiveness, grace... these are the two words i've come to appreciate so much over the past two hours. we as fallible human beings find it so hard to forgive and be gracious.. but what about God? We sin against a holy and perfect God countless times, yet in His loving mercy and by His grace, He forgives us if we are willing to confess our sins. 1 John 1:9
As i struggled and prayed through everything just now, this whole notion of God's grace and mercy just overwhelmed me. I realised how unforgiving and ungracious i was, and as i approached His throne of grace, I was utterly overwhelmed. Jesus, who bore all our sins on the cross 2000 years ago, still stands before the Father and constantly intercedes for us, regardless of the countless times we sin against Him. No one likes people to sin against them, how much more, then, would our Heavenly Father be grieved when men made in His image sin against Him? Yet, He forgives. Amazing....
As i struggled and prayed through everything just now, this whole notion of God's grace and mercy just overwhelmed me. I realised how unforgiving and ungracious i was, and as i approached His throne of grace, I was utterly overwhelmed. Jesus, who bore all our sins on the cross 2000 years ago, still stands before the Father and constantly intercedes for us, regardless of the countless times we sin against Him. No one likes people to sin against them, how much more, then, would our Heavenly Father be grieved when men made in His image sin against Him? Yet, He forgives. Amazing....
Tuesday, July 05, 2005
"No man is greater than his prayer life. The pastor who is not praying is playing; the people who are not praying are straying. The pulpit can be a shop window to display one's talents; the prayer closet allows no showing off.
Poverty-stricken as the church is today in many things, she is most stricken here in the place of prayer. We have many organisers, but few agonisers; many players and payers, few pray-ers; many singers, few clingers; lots of pastors, few wrestlers; many fears, few tears; much fashion, little passion; many interferers, few intercessors; many writers but few fighters. Failing here, we fail everywhere." -Leonard Ravenhill, Why Revival Tarries
Food for thought. Well, bottomline is we need to pray!
Just got back from sri lanka today. Many things on my mind, what I've been fearing may be coming true.. Inside me is a struggle between wanting to find out more and living on the notion that ignorance is bliss. Pray.. God may just turn this whole situation around and bring salvation eventually. That's the hope i'm living on for now.
Poverty-stricken as the church is today in many things, she is most stricken here in the place of prayer. We have many organisers, but few agonisers; many players and payers, few pray-ers; many singers, few clingers; lots of pastors, few wrestlers; many fears, few tears; much fashion, little passion; many interferers, few intercessors; many writers but few fighters. Failing here, we fail everywhere." -Leonard Ravenhill, Why Revival Tarries
Food for thought. Well, bottomline is we need to pray!
Just got back from sri lanka today. Many things on my mind, what I've been fearing may be coming true.. Inside me is a struggle between wanting to find out more and living on the notion that ignorance is bliss. Pray.. God may just turn this whole situation around and bring salvation eventually. That's the hope i'm living on for now.
Thursday, June 23, 2005
Wednesday, June 22, 2005
time with God is always so refreshing! :)
day by day, and with each passing moment
strength i find to meet my trials here
trusting in my Father's wise bestowment
there's no cause for worry or for fear
He whose heart is kind beyond all measure
gives unto each day what He deems best
lovingly, it's part of pain and pleasure
mingling toil with peace and rest.
God's heart is really kind beyond all measure and our futures rest in His hands.. so trust in Him.
day by day, and with each passing moment
strength i find to meet my trials here
trusting in my Father's wise bestowment
there's no cause for worry or for fear
He whose heart is kind beyond all measure
gives unto each day what He deems best
lovingly, it's part of pain and pleasure
mingling toil with peace and rest.
God's heart is really kind beyond all measure and our futures rest in His hands.. so trust in Him.
Friday, June 10, 2005
Tuesday, June 07, 2005
just got home from bible trail! the speaker was really good.. spoke on trials and how we should approach trials with joy, prayerfully and with a heart that desires to learn..
besides that, i saw my two cousins, ian and isaac. i rarely meet my extended family on my father's side nowadays. besides reunion dinner and my grandfather's bday, we hardly see each other. and seeing them today made me feel so mixed. happy cos i got to catch up with them abit, sad cos i really miss the times we spent playing together when we were young, and the fellowship we had. now i feel like we barely know each other.. each one of us carrying on with our own lives and only finding out abt each other through our grandparents.. or our bi-annual family gatherings. especially for ian, cos both of us really grew up together.. played together.. did mischievous things together! haha.. we even went to australia together when i was in pri 4! and learning that he'll be going into army soon, and might not even be able to come for my grandfather's bday celebration in september made me feel even worse. sometimes i wish what happened didn't happen at all. then things would be totally different.. but like what the speaker said.. God lets things happen for a reason. to let us grow through these trials. i decided, i will write letters to them tonight to pass them tomorrow! :)
something that struck me was also praying for my family.. all the more even as the end is near. this family is the only family on my dad's side who're entirely christian. all the more as christians in the family do we have to keep praying for God to have mercy on the rest of my family! this is something that's been on my heart.. my lack of perseverance and discipline in praying for my family.. both my mum and dad's side. :s
besides that, i saw my two cousins, ian and isaac. i rarely meet my extended family on my father's side nowadays. besides reunion dinner and my grandfather's bday, we hardly see each other. and seeing them today made me feel so mixed. happy cos i got to catch up with them abit, sad cos i really miss the times we spent playing together when we were young, and the fellowship we had. now i feel like we barely know each other.. each one of us carrying on with our own lives and only finding out abt each other through our grandparents.. or our bi-annual family gatherings. especially for ian, cos both of us really grew up together.. played together.. did mischievous things together! haha.. we even went to australia together when i was in pri 4! and learning that he'll be going into army soon, and might not even be able to come for my grandfather's bday celebration in september made me feel even worse. sometimes i wish what happened didn't happen at all. then things would be totally different.. but like what the speaker said.. God lets things happen for a reason. to let us grow through these trials. i decided, i will write letters to them tonight to pass them tomorrow! :)
something that struck me was also praying for my family.. all the more even as the end is near. this family is the only family on my dad's side who're entirely christian. all the more as christians in the family do we have to keep praying for God to have mercy on the rest of my family! this is something that's been on my heart.. my lack of perseverance and discipline in praying for my family.. both my mum and dad's side. :s
Thursday, June 02, 2005
a very eventful day today was.. from getting lost at woodlands checkpoint to receiving my exam results to going on an interesting church visit to watching madagascar! am i tired!
i set out early in the morning to go to aunty chiow khim's place.. took 966 all the way to woodlands.. it's an expressway bus so it was quite fast.. and then took 911 from the interchange. problem was i took the bus from the wrong berth, so the bus landed up going in the opposite direction, towards the woodlands checkpoint! i was quite dazed and scared when i realised i was lost.. just kept walking through the checkpoint mall.. and along the main road hoping to flag a cab, but there were none in sight. finally i walked till i reached cedric's (my cousin) house.. then i found my way back to the interchange.
along the way to woodlands.. it kinda struck me how selfish i've been in not spending more time talking to my cousins, cheryl and cedric, about God and attempting to bring them to church. in fact, i think i've put in zero effort in talking to them. i dunno how this thought came to mind, perhaps it's cos they live in woodlands too and i just asked them for directions yesterday. it's always been my aunt's greatest wish to see these two come to know God and accept Him one day. my mum had been nagging at my bro and i to make the effort but i don't think either of us have lifted a finger. this very morning, this issue was tugging relentlessly at my heartstrings as i asked God for forgiveness. i felt even more remorse as i thought about how i'd always lifted my unsaved friends and GB girls into God's hands and not even cared a hoot about my cousins. this shall not be the case anymore!
i had a good time talking to aunty chiow khim today. she's been one of those who's impacted my life in a huge way, having been my piano teacher since i was 4 years old. and she's the only person i've known so far who spoken to my dad in such a straightforward manner about accepting Christ. back then, i cringed as i saw my dad shift uncomfortably in his seat. today, i only wish there were more people like her, people who were willing to be bold for God. when i think about that, i feel ashamed that i am not able to be as bold as she is, to come right out and talk to my dad about salvation.
well, we talked about lots of stuff, mostly about teaching music, and church ministry. i mentioned to her my desire to further my studies in music when i graduate and she spoke to me about doing a masters in church music in singapore bible college. when she was telling me about it, i felt it was my dream course. it entails all the aspects of classical music and professional training, and added to that i will have to take bible electives. and it'll really apply especially in regard to music ministry in church. God willing, i'd really want to enrol in that course. well, she did give me a word of caution that was.. i can plan as much as i want now, but if it's not aligned to God's will, i may not get it, so i have to keep praying about this and endure my pharmacy course for now!! 3 more years!
speaking of which, really thank God for my results. they're rather average, but i can safely say i do not deserve the results which i got, for the amount of effort i put in. everything turned out like this cos God has been so gracious to me. phew! 2 sems down.. 6 more to go!
i'm actually too tired and shacked out to write about the church visit and madagascar now. so i'll do that another time! zzzzz....
i set out early in the morning to go to aunty chiow khim's place.. took 966 all the way to woodlands.. it's an expressway bus so it was quite fast.. and then took 911 from the interchange. problem was i took the bus from the wrong berth, so the bus landed up going in the opposite direction, towards the woodlands checkpoint! i was quite dazed and scared when i realised i was lost.. just kept walking through the checkpoint mall.. and along the main road hoping to flag a cab, but there were none in sight. finally i walked till i reached cedric's (my cousin) house.. then i found my way back to the interchange.
along the way to woodlands.. it kinda struck me how selfish i've been in not spending more time talking to my cousins, cheryl and cedric, about God and attempting to bring them to church. in fact, i think i've put in zero effort in talking to them. i dunno how this thought came to mind, perhaps it's cos they live in woodlands too and i just asked them for directions yesterday. it's always been my aunt's greatest wish to see these two come to know God and accept Him one day. my mum had been nagging at my bro and i to make the effort but i don't think either of us have lifted a finger. this very morning, this issue was tugging relentlessly at my heartstrings as i asked God for forgiveness. i felt even more remorse as i thought about how i'd always lifted my unsaved friends and GB girls into God's hands and not even cared a hoot about my cousins. this shall not be the case anymore!
i had a good time talking to aunty chiow khim today. she's been one of those who's impacted my life in a huge way, having been my piano teacher since i was 4 years old. and she's the only person i've known so far who spoken to my dad in such a straightforward manner about accepting Christ. back then, i cringed as i saw my dad shift uncomfortably in his seat. today, i only wish there were more people like her, people who were willing to be bold for God. when i think about that, i feel ashamed that i am not able to be as bold as she is, to come right out and talk to my dad about salvation.
well, we talked about lots of stuff, mostly about teaching music, and church ministry. i mentioned to her my desire to further my studies in music when i graduate and she spoke to me about doing a masters in church music in singapore bible college. when she was telling me about it, i felt it was my dream course. it entails all the aspects of classical music and professional training, and added to that i will have to take bible electives. and it'll really apply especially in regard to music ministry in church. God willing, i'd really want to enrol in that course. well, she did give me a word of caution that was.. i can plan as much as i want now, but if it's not aligned to God's will, i may not get it, so i have to keep praying about this and endure my pharmacy course for now!! 3 more years!
speaking of which, really thank God for my results. they're rather average, but i can safely say i do not deserve the results which i got, for the amount of effort i put in. everything turned out like this cos God has been so gracious to me. phew! 2 sems down.. 6 more to go!
i'm actually too tired and shacked out to write about the church visit and madagascar now. so i'll do that another time! zzzzz....
Thursday, May 26, 2005
gonna post a short one just before i meet mark for lunch later. wooohoooo! carrie underwood! but i have to say, the show just now was quite crappy! i spent half of it raising my eyebrows at the tv.
the past few days have been quite eventful. there's been so much to think about. but it's been good, getting time off at home just reading the Word, praying.. spending extended time on the piano.. reading books and stuff. i really needed the break, and did i enjoy it!
well, on sunday, i went for the 100% rehearsal and hmm.. as i listened to the band play, i was dazzled by the music and couldn't help imagining what it would be like on that night itself. of course, what matters most in worship is not the music, but the heart. but as i watched the band members playing and singing their hearts out for God, i was touched. truly, this is what God desires of us.. our hearts fully submitted to Him. not just what we can do for Him.. but far more importantly, people who enthrone Him above all things and live their lives in obedience to Him. 1 Samuel 15:22. okay, i do admit i wanna be there on the 4th of June but josie.. don't start.
after the rehearsal, i had the most memorable karaoke session as far as i can remember, with the mt sinai people. huge room with a dance floor and disco ball.. sadly enough, it was not well utilised. the kids were amazingly cute. and the adults were at times appalled by our choice of song. heh. but it really was a night to remember.
other than that.. something that's been on my mind is furthering my studies in music. just spending extended time away concentrating on music alone. and not just secular music.. but also church music and music in worship. but one thing that i've been thinking about is how i can use this time away and what's gonna come out of it for His glory.. how i can serve Him better through the study of music. and if i can figure that out, i'm definitely going for it.
the past few days have been quite eventful. there's been so much to think about. but it's been good, getting time off at home just reading the Word, praying.. spending extended time on the piano.. reading books and stuff. i really needed the break, and did i enjoy it!
well, on sunday, i went for the 100% rehearsal and hmm.. as i listened to the band play, i was dazzled by the music and couldn't help imagining what it would be like on that night itself. of course, what matters most in worship is not the music, but the heart. but as i watched the band members playing and singing their hearts out for God, i was touched. truly, this is what God desires of us.. our hearts fully submitted to Him. not just what we can do for Him.. but far more importantly, people who enthrone Him above all things and live their lives in obedience to Him. 1 Samuel 15:22. okay, i do admit i wanna be there on the 4th of June but josie.. don't start.
after the rehearsal, i had the most memorable karaoke session as far as i can remember, with the mt sinai people. huge room with a dance floor and disco ball.. sadly enough, it was not well utilised. the kids were amazingly cute. and the adults were at times appalled by our choice of song. heh. but it really was a night to remember.
other than that.. something that's been on my mind is furthering my studies in music. just spending extended time away concentrating on music alone. and not just secular music.. but also church music and music in worship. but one thing that i've been thinking about is how i can use this time away and what's gonna come out of it for His glory.. how i can serve Him better through the study of music. and if i can figure that out, i'm definitely going for it.
Saturday, May 21, 2005
phew! CSI:SG is over! and to me, the day went pretty well. :) although at the start, i was slightly discouraged.. but as i sat at fort canning and saw groups come in and out.. and as i saw the people having fun.. some quite shack.. i felt happy! esp when i saw some of the quieter gals like tryphena, fransiska and shen faye opening up and mixing around with the others.. it was really heart warming. and thank God the weather was generally quite good and even in the rain, everyone was still having fun. so ends one day of activity.. and boy, am i shacked out.
sat in front of the tv watching formula one just now.. i haven't watched it in a long time, but today's the qualifying rounds for a very interesting race, the monaco grand prix. the circuit is quite different from the rest of the other circuits all round the world in that it's situated around buildings in the city, so there are quite alot of bends to wind around.. and there's this u-turn like bend. no joke. formula one racing ain't easy. you make one small mistake and it costs u seconds.. make a slightly bigger mistake and there goes your vehicle! kinda reminds me how the world works today. you really aren't given much leeway to make mistakes.. :s but it's also times like these that i'm thankful we have a God who is not only impartial, but loving.. such that He sent His son to die on the cross for us so that we may stand before Him righteous and pure. and many times, i have to remind myself not to take this grace for granted.
yesterday.. i read 1 peter about three times through.. and wow! 1 peter is a powerful book.. totally mind-blowing.. and everytime i read it i just felt this renewed sense of awe of how wonderful Christ is.. and also a sense of guilt cos we as His people are called to be holy.. but so often we fail.. but fail, we must, if not we'll never be able to appreciate God's grace!
uh.. okay i think i'm gonna stop here. feeling incoherent and not in the least spontaneous.
sat in front of the tv watching formula one just now.. i haven't watched it in a long time, but today's the qualifying rounds for a very interesting race, the monaco grand prix. the circuit is quite different from the rest of the other circuits all round the world in that it's situated around buildings in the city, so there are quite alot of bends to wind around.. and there's this u-turn like bend. no joke. formula one racing ain't easy. you make one small mistake and it costs u seconds.. make a slightly bigger mistake and there goes your vehicle! kinda reminds me how the world works today. you really aren't given much leeway to make mistakes.. :s but it's also times like these that i'm thankful we have a God who is not only impartial, but loving.. such that He sent His son to die on the cross for us so that we may stand before Him righteous and pure. and many times, i have to remind myself not to take this grace for granted.
yesterday.. i read 1 peter about three times through.. and wow! 1 peter is a powerful book.. totally mind-blowing.. and everytime i read it i just felt this renewed sense of awe of how wonderful Christ is.. and also a sense of guilt cos we as His people are called to be holy.. but so often we fail.. but fail, we must, if not we'll never be able to appreciate God's grace!
uh.. okay i think i'm gonna stop here. feeling incoherent and not in the least spontaneous.
Thursday, May 12, 2005
uh, my throat is very dry now. a result of prolonged singing and laughing last night. haha.. but it was fun! i was very reluctant to go at first as i was tired and feeling abit sick in the morning, but peiru and junwei managed to persuade me by showing me black faces and saying i broke my promise. sheesh! haha.. but somehow when you don't sing for a long time and then u go back and sing again, it gets very fun! especially when everyone sings together and no one starts creating nonsense scandals.
well.. besides going to chinatown at night, my afternoon was spent at potong pasir again.. conducting workshops on nutrition and common ailments. there was one rather knowledgable guy in my group who kept asking me very difficult-to-answer questions!! and sadly, also two compulsive smokers who kept wanting to go out and smoke. i tried to ask them to cut down bit by bit but they simply said "one day no cigarettes can die ah" and they even asked me to join them! !!!!!!! the people there are rather interesting and being there also stirred the desire in me to pray for them. one thing that touched me quite abit yday was when during the breaktime, this elderly man, whom they call the "old jukebox", was happily crooning "amazing grace" in chinese!
not to forget that after the sessions we had a short time of singing with them, which slowly morphed into karaoke. it started with me on the guitar and them wanting to sing "top of the world" and "peng you" and unfamiliar songs by teresa teng! and when i couldn't fulfil their desire to sing certain songs, the social worker put on a few karaoke vcds and then followed a karaoke session!
well, today's our final day there. i think i'll definitely miss my time spent there with everyone.
well.. besides going to chinatown at night, my afternoon was spent at potong pasir again.. conducting workshops on nutrition and common ailments. there was one rather knowledgable guy in my group who kept asking me very difficult-to-answer questions!! and sadly, also two compulsive smokers who kept wanting to go out and smoke. i tried to ask them to cut down bit by bit but they simply said "one day no cigarettes can die ah" and they even asked me to join them! !!!!!!! the people there are rather interesting and being there also stirred the desire in me to pray for them. one thing that touched me quite abit yday was when during the breaktime, this elderly man, whom they call the "old jukebox", was happily crooning "amazing grace" in chinese!
not to forget that after the sessions we had a short time of singing with them, which slowly morphed into karaoke. it started with me on the guitar and them wanting to sing "top of the world" and "peng you" and unfamiliar songs by teresa teng! and when i couldn't fulfil their desire to sing certain songs, the social worker put on a few karaoke vcds and then followed a karaoke session!
well, today's our final day there. i think i'll definitely miss my time spent there with everyone.
Friday, May 06, 2005
been in a reflective mood lately.. and many things have been on my mind. lots to think about after idmc and many issues have come up.
well, idmc has been really enriching.. two days have passed.. one more full day to go! so far everything said has encouraged me and challenged me to dig deeper in the Word, and not just read on a superficial level.
Biblical illiteracy, something that has been more prominent lately, especially among the second or third generation christians.. living in an instant society.. all we want are instant results without taking a step further to think things through. as a result, our very shallow knowledge and understanding of the Word is unable to bring us through times of trial.. or even times when we seek to share the gospel with our loved ones and friends. we don't even know how to extensively defend our faith with backing from the Word nowadays. and that's something so disturbing..
today, i was talking to my mum over lunch and she started complaining about my dad.. about the many things i've heard over and over again.. while my usual response was to shrug off all these complaints and carry on with whatever i was doing, it suddenly struck me and i voiced out my view that above it all, what he did not have while we did.. was God with us.. and as i told her that, my voice broke and at that moment i felt this immense pain of a daughter who sorely wanted her dad to share her faith.. to worship the same God she worshipped.. and throughout the day the feeling just hit me again and again.. at night when we were singing as we worship You and making a difference.. when i read 2 cor 4 again this morning.. i just felt it so strongly but along with that came feelings of helplessness and inadequacy.
well, idmc has been really enriching.. two days have passed.. one more full day to go! so far everything said has encouraged me and challenged me to dig deeper in the Word, and not just read on a superficial level.
Biblical illiteracy, something that has been more prominent lately, especially among the second or third generation christians.. living in an instant society.. all we want are instant results without taking a step further to think things through. as a result, our very shallow knowledge and understanding of the Word is unable to bring us through times of trial.. or even times when we seek to share the gospel with our loved ones and friends. we don't even know how to extensively defend our faith with backing from the Word nowadays. and that's something so disturbing..
today, i was talking to my mum over lunch and she started complaining about my dad.. about the many things i've heard over and over again.. while my usual response was to shrug off all these complaints and carry on with whatever i was doing, it suddenly struck me and i voiced out my view that above it all, what he did not have while we did.. was God with us.. and as i told her that, my voice broke and at that moment i felt this immense pain of a daughter who sorely wanted her dad to share her faith.. to worship the same God she worshipped.. and throughout the day the feeling just hit me again and again.. at night when we were singing as we worship You and making a difference.. when i read 2 cor 4 again this morning.. i just felt it so strongly but along with that came feelings of helplessness and inadequacy.
Monday, April 25, 2005
Saturday, April 23, 2005
decerebrate rigidity the term has been on my mind the whole day.. sheesh. i even dreamt abt it last night! shows how much neuro is getting to me! argh.. but at least one question came out, in the mcq.
argh.. this is so irritating. back in the exam hall this morning i was dying to sleep.. to go home and take a nice long nap.. but now my brain is tired but i can't get to sleep!! :s
hmm.. two papers down.. three more to go. but at least im done with physio.. pharm prac yday was ridiculous, maybe even to the point that it was funny. there was ridiculously not enough time to complete everything.. and the questions asked were ridiculously ridiculous. for lita's part at least. and physio was ok i guess.. except that i made a very big grave mistake. sheesh. but well, i think i tried my best, so will leave everything in God's hands.. was tired, yet relieved when i came out of the room just now.
i think the exams are getting to everyone. i was talking to max just now and told him i was tired but couldn't sleep.. and he sent me a prescription for diazepam. :s *rolls eyes*
anyhow, im glad there were people like peiru and sarah and janice studying with me and talking rubbish with me when we got bored of the books. makes studying for exams more interesting.
argh.. this is so irritating. back in the exam hall this morning i was dying to sleep.. to go home and take a nice long nap.. but now my brain is tired but i can't get to sleep!! :s
hmm.. two papers down.. three more to go. but at least im done with physio.. pharm prac yday was ridiculous, maybe even to the point that it was funny. there was ridiculously not enough time to complete everything.. and the questions asked were ridiculously ridiculous. for lita's part at least. and physio was ok i guess.. except that i made a very big grave mistake. sheesh. but well, i think i tried my best, so will leave everything in God's hands.. was tired, yet relieved when i came out of the room just now.
i think the exams are getting to everyone. i was talking to max just now and told him i was tired but couldn't sleep.. and he sent me a prescription for diazepam. :s *rolls eyes*
anyhow, im glad there were people like peiru and sarah and janice studying with me and talking rubbish with me when we got bored of the books. makes studying for exams more interesting.
Tuesday, April 19, 2005
Monday, April 18, 2005
heh.. back from church.. just spent the afternoon finishing up my endocrine there.. i'm now in a fasted state, waiting for dinner..
well, can't wait for exams to end and hols to start.. have quite alot of things to do and i plan to start being more intentional with a few people who flashed across my mind today.. :s
this hols shall not be a wasted one!!
happy birthday my dear amandie!!
well, can't wait for exams to end and hols to start.. have quite alot of things to do and i plan to start being more intentional with a few people who flashed across my mind today.. :s
this hols shall not be a wasted one!!
happy birthday my dear amandie!!
Sunday, April 17, 2005
hmm.. lots to think about.. im in a grouch-ening mood now. particularly cos i always get the scolding. shall not mention what, but yeah. argh..
today was tiring. i dunno how to describe the day without being too obvious. something kinda disturbing which burdened me a little, happened.. and it just struck me that what the other party needed was also God.. and someone to walk alongside him.. the first time i saw him.. something just made me feel it. indescribable. amidst all the indignance about what he did.. we all are human after all.. and struggle with a humongous inflatable balloon called the ego. sigh, what can i do now besides pray? :s pray! haha..
today was tiring. i dunno how to describe the day without being too obvious. something kinda disturbing which burdened me a little, happened.. and it just struck me that what the other party needed was also God.. and someone to walk alongside him.. the first time i saw him.. something just made me feel it. indescribable. amidst all the indignance about what he did.. we all are human after all.. and struggle with a humongous inflatable balloon called the ego. sigh, what can i do now besides pray? :s pray! haha..
Monday, April 11, 2005
this is bad.. exams are in less than 2 weeks and i haven't been pushing myself hard enough! just had bahasa oral today.. hmm.. think the teacher was quite amused at my dialogue.. cos i was so nervous nothing was coming out of my mouth! and there was this awkward silence............. bleah.
yeah. but thank God i did ok for my recent bahasa test! which upped my morale..
just spent the night watching serial after serial.. from fate twisters to the nkf show.. sigh.. i shall get down to studying after that! for awhile at least. long day tmr.. sending my bro to school.. then going to school.. do qt.. go swimming.. meeting max at biz lib to study and then we have to go for our final ss lecture! ok i need to increase in productivity! from tomorrow till friday! the days shall not be wasted!
yeah. but thank God i did ok for my recent bahasa test! which upped my morale..
just spent the night watching serial after serial.. from fate twisters to the nkf show.. sigh.. i shall get down to studying after that! for awhile at least. long day tmr.. sending my bro to school.. then going to school.. do qt.. go swimming.. meeting max at biz lib to study and then we have to go for our final ss lecture! ok i need to increase in productivity! from tomorrow till friday! the days shall not be wasted!
Thursday, March 24, 2005
haha ok it's time for an update! like finally right bernie? hahahahaha!! well, the last few posts have been penned like when i went thru significant events in my life.. ie. when my dog went missing!! yah! but thank God he's been found!!!
hmmm.. 2 days to being in limbo.. that's when i turn 20.. and i'm neither a teen nor an adult.. sigh.. the big 2.. oh boy.. am i getting old! :( but well.. im glad im spending this birthday with quite alot of ppl.. just met joshua the other day.. and i had to treat him to cafe cartel.. sheesh.. :s but nvm.. i'll get a treat back soon! haha.. then yday was spent with the twins.. although it was to plan for the may 21st event.. yup.. and they kept making me laugh by rubbing their tummies!! hahahaha.. ok.. my humour.. no one can understand..
tonight i'll be having mentoring with my girls! yay! sounds like i have many daughters right? but no! i don't.. haha.. yep.. tmr there's good friday service.. then will be having lunch with the 85 guys.. followed by celebration with my pharm friends.. sat morning will be spent teaching piano, then spending some time with my family.. before meeting the 88 gals for lunch! yay! then going for baptism party.. haha.. quite happening ya. :)
gonna sleep now.. when i wake up i'll spend some time with God..
hmmm.. 2 days to being in limbo.. that's when i turn 20.. and i'm neither a teen nor an adult.. sigh.. the big 2.. oh boy.. am i getting old! :( but well.. im glad im spending this birthday with quite alot of ppl.. just met joshua the other day.. and i had to treat him to cafe cartel.. sheesh.. :s but nvm.. i'll get a treat back soon! haha.. then yday was spent with the twins.. although it was to plan for the may 21st event.. yup.. and they kept making me laugh by rubbing their tummies!! hahahaha.. ok.. my humour.. no one can understand..
tonight i'll be having mentoring with my girls! yay! sounds like i have many daughters right? but no! i don't.. haha.. yep.. tmr there's good friday service.. then will be having lunch with the 85 guys.. followed by celebration with my pharm friends.. sat morning will be spent teaching piano, then spending some time with my family.. before meeting the 88 gals for lunch! yay! then going for baptism party.. haha.. quite happening ya. :)
gonna sleep now.. when i wake up i'll spend some time with God..
Monday, February 21, 2005
Saturday, February 05, 2005
Friday, January 21, 2005
haiz.. very fed up and frustrated! arghh!!!! just cos u're in a bad mood doesn't mean u can vent it out on me.. i think i've had had enough of this..
yes.. you've been hurt and stuff.. but you didn't have to do all that you did and say all that you said.. argh..
Lord.. please help me to forgive.. cos i do'nt think i have the strength to anymore..
yes.. you've been hurt and stuff.. but you didn't have to do all that you did and say all that you said.. argh..
Lord.. please help me to forgive.. cos i do'nt think i have the strength to anymore..
Monday, January 17, 2005
yay! im back after over one month of blogging.. haha after persistent bernie bugged me to blog! :) sigh.. boy.. has this been a busy and eventful month.. i guess my thoughts are jumbled up.. mixed feelings abt lots of things.. :S i feel my life has changed quite abit in a way..
well.. what with the tsunamis and all and thinking thru many issues.. i still maintain that God is good.. and i'm thankful for so many things He has done over the past month :)
school has started.. tutorial registrations are a BIG headache.. i stayed up till 1 am to sign up for a tutorial group and the whole system went down!! argh!!! and when it was up again, all the places got snapped up again.. arghhh!!!!! :s
ok now i have to rush for badminton! i'll update again soon!! argh!! sorry for being so vague bernie.. heeee
well.. what with the tsunamis and all and thinking thru many issues.. i still maintain that God is good.. and i'm thankful for so many things He has done over the past month :)
school has started.. tutorial registrations are a BIG headache.. i stayed up till 1 am to sign up for a tutorial group and the whole system went down!! argh!!! and when it was up again, all the places got snapped up again.. arghhh!!!!! :s
ok now i have to rush for badminton! i'll update again soon!! argh!! sorry for being so vague bernie.. heeee
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