"Behold, I am sending you out as sheep in the midst of wolves,
so be wise as serpents and innocent as doves."
-Matthew 10:16

acknowledge. don't try. surrender, not strive. :)

was talking to eug today and he said something that really caused me to pause and think. the year just flew past like that, but time goes by so slowly. something like that. that was the most interesting paradox i'd ever heard. but hey, it's really true at times.

"But there’s a danger in loving somebody too much
And it’s sad when you know it’s your heart you can’t trust
There’s a reason why people don’t stay where they are
Baby sometimes love just ain’t enough"

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and we adopted lucas too.

"There is a higher throne
Than all this world has known
Where faithful ones from every tongue
Will one day come
Before the Son we'll stand
Made faultless through the Lamb
Believing hearts find promised grace
Salvation comes

Hear heaven's voices sing
Their thunderous anthem rings
Through emerald courts and sapphire skies
Their praises rise
All glory, wisdom, power
Strength, thanks and honour are
To God our King who reigns on high
Forevermore


And there we'll find our home
Our life before the throne
We'll honour Him in perfect song
Where we belong
He'll wipe each tear-stained eye
As thirst and hunger die
The Lamb becomes our Shepherd King
We'll reign with him."
- Higher Throne, Keith Getty & Kristyn Lennox

Was listening to this song while walking to piano this morning. It took my mind away from the here and now to the future. The call to focus on the eternal, not temporal. High, yet tough.

The silence is deafening.

i've been feeling very weird these few days. inadequate, in a sense. it's hard to put into words.. i just feel like the more i think i understand something, the more i actually don't. and it leaves me feeling so.. frustrated. i need God to show me....

Show me the way of the cross once again,
Denying myself for the love that I've gained
Everything's You now, everything's changed.
It's time You had my whole life;
You can have it all.

I've given like a beggar but lived like the rich
And crafted myself a more comfortable cross,
Yet what I am called to is deeper than this;
It's time You had my whole life;
You can have it all.

I resolve to give it all,
Some things must die,
Some things must live.
Not "What can I gain?"
But, "What can I give?"
If much is required when much is received
Then You can have my whole life;
Jesus have it all.


ran to mg today. we went inside for awhile. it's changed so much.. everything. i took pictures with my phone.. brought along with me a sense of nostalgia. i really miss that place.

"Wait for the Lord; be strong and take heart and wait for the Lord." -Psalms 27:14

ugh.. i woke up this morning with a very scratchy throat. actually i woke up quite early, just lay in bed for a long time, thinking.. and thinking.. haha.

sigh. the after effects of a humongous carl's junior dinner, with 4 people who managed to fool me effortlessly about the uses of an air bag. :s and i had a burger and THREE packets of fries! cos i was hungry and hx and jw weren't really touching their fries! ahh!!!

by the time i got home last night, i was feeling so stoney and tired from all the laughing. seriously.. laughing too much makes u feel... really tired.. but it was honestly very fun lah. haha. :)

just came back from my cousin's wedding. it was hilarious.. but i won't elaborate, cos it's quite mean. heh.

we were all hyper tonight. actually during the day too, but not as much as during the dinner. we were laughing at everything we could possibly laugh at.

well, in the midst of all the laughter, at the back of my mind, i was amazed at how we've all grown up. amazing. another cousin's getting married next year. soon it'll be my turn! (okok, not so soon... ) all that brought my mind back to our younger days. the genting highlands trip.. the family dinners.. time really flies. we don't meet each other often nowadays, but somehow, they seem to have a special place in my heart. heh.

this morning, i stood in front of the mirror staring at myself and tying my hair, thinking about how messy and unruly it was getting. suddenly, Genesis 1:27 popped into my head, and i realised i am made in His image. i started to look at myself in a different light after that. :)

i am staring blankly at my computer screen now.. trying to get started on work. have to do my lab reports and tutorial.. oh yes.. and resisting the urge to go on msn. hah.. fasting from it for a week.

just woke up.. today's dispensing test wiped out just about every bit of strength left in me. hmm.. although some of my preps turned out a little weird.. (like my suppositories.. again) im glad i managed to finish everything before five. the washing was another big headache. wool fat.. argh. but it's over! we were all exhausted, yet relieved.

back to work....

As i was playing piano in service today, my gaze fell upon a few youths, fully engaged in worship. Immensely touched by that sight, tears welled up in my eyes. God is working. Truly, He is.

Lord, how majestic You are,
my eyes meet Your gaze and my burden is lifted.
Your Word is a lamp to my feet,
Your hand swift to bless and Your banner a shield.

You are my everything,
You who made earth and sky and sea,
all that You've placed inside of me
calls out Your Name.
To You I bow,
the King who commands my every breath,
the Man who has conquered sin and death,
my Lord and my King,
my everything!

Lord, how resplendent You are,
when I think of Your heavens,
the work of Your fingers
what is man, that You are mindful of him,
yet You've crowned him with glory
and caused him to reign..

The three of us sat in the canteen today, for two whole hours, just talking. oblivious to the people around us.. not really bothering about the time or stuff we had to do. just talked.. about going on a holiday.. possible destinations, ideal scenarios, things to do after the exams, eating dim sum. It was so nice.. there was a nice cool breeze, none of us wanted to move.. just wanted to carry on our conversation and sit there forever. Until 2 o clock.. when reality finally hit.

i realise, i really do need a holiday, or a break at least. i am so tired. really wish someone'd just take me away for a few days.. just to relax.

but, thank you the two of you. those two hours today were the best part of the week for me. i enjoyed just sitting there, being able to speak my mind without the fear of being judged or being chided for saying silly things. enjoyed the fellowship, the nonsense, albeit "digging my own grave" sometimes. haha. and i really thank God for two wonderful sisters like you. :)