sigh.. it feels horrible when u're feeling really bad inside but u still have to keep that smile on ur face..

haha.. i just finished the most mentally draining paper of my life.. oh boy.. towards the end i was just thinking "hurry up just let it end" even though i hadn't really finished doing a few parts of a question.. haha.. and now my brain feels like it needs a break.. oh boy.. but thank God He's brought me through.. especially through this paper.. my weakest module.. i was so nervous but during the exam He gave me peace.. despite me not putting in 100%.. as always He's been so gracious.. so whatever result i get for this.. im just gonna thank God.. whether i pass or fail..

sigh.. other than that.. my life has been.. tiring.. emotionally, mentally, physically, spiritually.. guess things are not really going well everywhere i go.. and so many things have been stressing me out.. i don't really know when this is gonna end.. but i know if it keeps continuing im gonna suffer from a nervous breakdown.. argh!! i need a break!!

argh.. going mad.. i need a morale boost..
this feeling is the worst i've ever felt in all the exams i've taken!! argh!!!!

haha i just have to blog abt this! just went to east coast park.. alone.. just me, myself and God.. haha.. went there to cycle.. and after awhile.. i sat by the seaside and just looked out into the sea.. besides those ugly looking ships and carriers, the view was pretty good.. especially since the weather in the morning was so good!

there were fluffy white clouds and blue skies.. and the sun! yeah! i just sat there, admiring the scenery and the waves.. and felt really at peace.. haven't felt this way in a long time! i sang songs.. prayed.. and just stared out into the vast ocean.. if only there weren't those ships.. ergh!
after that i went to bedok jetty.. and stared out into the open again.. watched a few planes land, the rays of sun falling on the water.. and saw a few fish in the water too.. sigh.. the view was just breahtaking! haha.. i wanna do this again! and again! and again!

sigh.. so many things have been crossing my mind lately.. and i've been feeling moody too.. maybe that's why i fell sick.. haha but today's trip to east coast really helped!