heh.. i'm back after a loooooooooong day! had a long day at sch.. and then prayer meeting! church was buzzing with activity in the afternoon cos the j1s came to study.
and prayer meeting was good, as always. :) one thing that struck me.. to have roots and wings.. roots to be rooted strongly in God.. and wings to soar..

realised also.. in school today that every semester, dynamics change so much. i guess there's good and bad to it. in a sense i've learnt to be more independent.. but it's sad, cos the ppl you were once close to aren't as close anymore? oh well.. i guess it only brings me to a realisation that the only constant in our lives is God. and how we really need to depend on Him..

yesterday.. was walking in the eusoff carpark with mich.. we were talking and talking.. and it was windy.. then we saw the leaves falling from the trees like rain.. it was so nice.. like..... autumn in NUS! hahahaha!!

i'm really having the most hilarious conversation on msn now...

i just got home from a major pig-out session with sarah at ikea!! ahhh!!! it started with an innocent craving for spaghetti and meatballs.. (must be the liquorice in lab) and we ended up there.. eating ALOT! took photos of the before and after state of the plates.. when they were full and when they were completely wiped out! ah.. sinful yet satisfying. heh..

while we were on our way out to the bus stop.. we started talking about cravings.. (again) and we were laughing over how next time after we get married.. the men in our lives would be running all over singapore to satisfy our hunger pangs. hahahahahahahahaha.. quite nonsensical we were..

anyway, i need to exercise! cos i learnt during lecture on monday that the fat we consume goes directly to our adipose tissues! haha.. and someone (bleah) commented today that i look chunkier! (!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!)

haha.. i've been concentrating so much on my paper the past few days.. now that it's finally done.. i'm feeling abit lost. haha.. much more to be done, but i dunno which to start with! hmm.. maybe i should finish writing my half-written letter first!

well, back to school again and this half term will probably be more hectic than the next.. i feel as if i'm doing six modules sometimes. but ya.. thankfully i've managed to really sit still before God each day. and it's then that i realise how much He's been working in our lives.

trying to keep myself awake while reading articles from this website that'll help me for my philo paper. the topics are quite interesting but im just quite sleepy now.. *yawn* haha.. and our 4 day break just flew past like that. but thank God for it. was rather refreshed, although abit fearful of the hectic next-half-of-the-sem ahead.

the past few days have been busy, though fun. thought-provoking too, as i rethink and evaluate my role in the youth.

was at marche's today with the 85s.. and i did the same thing i always do everytime i go to marche's... pile the plate sky-high with stir-fried vegetables i can buy at the market!!!

pharm law lect was cancelled today as well! managed to get some research done for the paper i'm supposed to write for my diploma exam.. i must say the central library really has good music resource books. the next thing i gotta do is to read them!

back to my philo paper....

walking by faith in a sight-driven generation!

haha yay! i like my new desktop background. dunno if it can be seen though. cos the html aint' appearing.

been terribly mood swingy these days. REALLY terrible.. argh.

anyway the song below.. its lyrics are so meaningful. the two verses that struck me, though, were what hilmay called the "sad" verses. verses 3 and 4.. i dunno. they just struck me. that's how beautiful unconditional love is.

When love is found and hope comes home,
Sing and be glad that two are one.
When love explodes and fills the sky,
Praise God and share our Maker's joy.

When love has flow'red in trust and care,
Build both each day that love may dare
To reach beyond home's warmth and light,
To serve and strive for truth and right.

When love is tried as loved-ones change,
Hold still to hope though all seems strange,
Till ease returns and love grows wise
Through list'ning ears and opened eyes.

When love is torn and trust betrayed,
Pray strength to love, till torments fade,
Till lovers keep no score of wrong
But hear through pain love's Easter song.

Praise God for love, praise God for life,
In age or youth, in calm or strife,
Lift up your hearts let love be fed
Through death and life in broken bread.

"But let all who take refuge in You be glad;
let them ever sing for joy.
Spread Your protection over them,
that those who love Your Name may rejoice in You."
-Psalms 5:11

5 minutes ago, i switched on my tv for the first time in.. at least 10 days? woahs! shows how long i haven't watched tv, and that didn't hit me until the other day when i was in the bus staring blankly at tv mobile. haha. sarah and shiwei are gonna laugh at me, cos i was talking abt watching tv the whole day today. :s

anyway, my biochem test is finally over! all that studying, just for 45 minutes and 25 mcqs! but well, i take it i'm studying for the exams and well, those reactions and pathways are rather interesting anyway. it's just not very easy to link them all up, and once you do, it can get confusing. i find i'm enjoying my modules more this semester than the last two. it's much more applicable to the profession and labs are more like cooking lessons. (until you realise you have lab reports to complete, that is)

yeah. but hectic, my schedule is. so hectic that i'm very physically tired now. desperately in need for a break. very timely, cos as of tomorrow, i'm on ALMOST one week of holiday!

spent my whole evening today sifting through old letters and cards. it started with the search for chew wee and may fern's wedding bulletin. never found it, but instead i found other sorts of buried treasure. heh.. it's nice to sit back once in awhile and reminisce. realised i've lost touch with so many people, especially the mg ones. sigh.. people who meant so much to me in the past, i hardly know what they're doing now. :s i'm really bad at keeping in touch with people. so, if i haven't talked to you in a long time, holler!!

zzzzzzzzz....

sigh. just got home. what a sad day.

i discovered during biochem lecture that my precious blue penguin is lost!! must have dropped from my bag. :( but i'll go hunt for it. hopefully it's somewhere in the house.

had a horrendous experience coming home from school today. there was a thunderstorm. at first it was quite funny, cos sarah and i were screaming and gasping everytime the lightning flashed. then we went in separate direction. i went to the marine parade bus stop to wait for the number 15 bus, which never came!

it wasn't too bad at first, except that i felt like a complete fool, the only person who was covering her ears at the bus stop and whining everytime there was a loud clap of thunder. but as i stood there, the rain just got heavier and the thunder just got louder. so did my stomach. i felt like a little kid facing the big thunder monster alone. haha.. but honestly, i was so scared i felt like crying. oops. :s

ended up boarding the 966 and stopping somewhere further away from home. i ran home, anticipating kfc for dinner, but aaah!! my mum forgot the kfc number. so i ended up eating bread and hotdogs.

well, despite not having a filling dinner, being at home has never felt so comforting before. haha. at least im sheltered from the perils of thunder!

instead of going for the tri-fac bash last night, i found myself bashing through my books! aah! sorry jenxi and all the dance ppl! show me a video of your dance ok!

studied till 1 last night, then i woke up and made my way to piano lesson, feeling very groggy. my piano teacher was quite upset with me today, cos he felt i wasn't being musical and expressive enough. which was true. i was terribly sleepy, not entirely woken up yet. :s and yeah, he set me a task. to go and research on the lives of the three composers and imagine them playing those pieces. (he was terribly appalled that i couldn't remember how brahms looked like!)

yeah, it's true. i need more passion!!! i think my busy life as a pharmer has wiped out some of my passion for music. but that's no excuse, i'll have to work at it! and work at understanding brahms, britten and hadyn better. heh.

on a very different note, im sitting here with the Bible open in front of me. msged mich the wrong verse just now, but hey. this verse really serves as a reminder. it doesn't really link much to the rest of my entry, but somehow it made me pause to think about God for a moment.
You see, at just the right time, when we were still powerless, Christ died for the ungodly. Very rarely will anyone die for a righteous man, though for a good man someone might possibly dare to die. But God demonstrates His own love for us in this: While we were still sinners, Christ died for us." - Romans 5: 6-8
wow.

decided to blog while printing my SDL project. i'm so happy it's finally done! one project down, many more to come! haha..not to mention my biochem test next wk!

well, yeah. i've been so busy and tired.. trying to cope with schoolwork and practising my piano more regularly cos my dip exam's coming up after my uni exams! and so many times during the week, i felt so weak and unable to cope. but truly, as written in 2 Corinthians, God's grace is sufficient for me and His strength is made perfect in my weakness.

as i reflected today, i realised that all that busyness and feeling weak has brought me to a realisation that i can't rely on my own strength cos by that, i'd probably burn out soon. and it's only that which made me realise the importance of relying on God. so, maybe feeling weak and helpless ain't so bad after all!!

ok, everyone read this article. i read this today during my lunch break. :s but anyway, too tired to comment now. it's been a crazy week in school.

praise night 2005. definitely a night to remember. many songs were sung, various items presented, everyone enjoyed the time of worship. meanwhile, many thoughts were lingering in my head. it started with the juniors item.. before that i was just scrambling around, trying to keep my scores on the piano. (they were flying all around) besides thinking about how cute the children were, how enthusiastically they were doing their actions, i was drawn to the lyrics of the songs they sang.

"In the morning when i wake, You will hear my voice, O Lord. In the morning when i wake, i prepare a prayer for You. In the morning when i wake, i watch and wait for You."

that's what i want to learn. waiting on God, being still before God when i wake up.

youth item. as i gazed at them singing and dancing while conducting, i was touched. albeit being tickled by the guys during the afternoon rehearsal, watching these youths sing their hearts for God not only warmed my heart, but reminded me that hey.. Christ is coming back for us again. look towards the year of jubilee, where we will be free from the slavery of sin.

"Behold He comes, riding on the clouds, shining like the sun, at the trumpet call. so lift your voice, it's the year of jubilee, out of zion's hill salvation comes."

praise night brought me back to think about the wonder of music. how there is just something about music that seems to connect us so easily to God in worship. God created music, and He must have had a purpose for doing so. and really, thank God for music because it's become so much a part of me. the challenge for us, however, is worshipping God not just with music on sundays, but with our lives every single day of the week! trying to glorify God in the mundane things. and i believe, that's also what God desires of us.

well, i'm tired. it's been a long day. long and good. now, it's time to rest!

this guy was mr pharmacy yesterday, thanks to his t-shirt.

was taking some time to reflect today.. so many times we are easily dissatisfied with our lives, with the situation we're in, with the people we have to interact with, with the things we have to do. (homework, projects, tutorials!!!) but hey.. we fail to realise that everyday is a gift from God. the very fact that we wake up in the morning everyday is something we ought to thank God for and not take for granted. and once u realise that, life takes on a whole new perspective.