at the end of my exams, these are the people i wanna thank God for:

1. for God Himself.. if not for Your grace, I wouldn't have been able to get through the past few weeks, much less the exams. Thank You for loving me so much more than i could ever imagine...

2. my family.. for all the rides to school, fries, encouragement, thank you all so much.

3. my mugging buddies and closest friends.. the 85s, janice, etc. for all the times we've spent in church/school going crazy, for all the crazy antics, for being there.. :)

4. the 88 girls. :)

5. for older sisters like annie and hilmay. 'nuff said.:)

"All the way my Savior leads me;
What have I to ask beside?
Can I doubt His tender mercy,
Who through life has been my Guide?
Heav’nly peace, divinest comfort,
Here by faith in Him to dwell!
For I know, whate’er befall me,
Jesus doeth all things well;
For I know, whate’er befall me,
Jesus doeth all things well.

All the way my Savior leads me,
Cheers each winding path I tread;
Gives me grace for every trial,
Feeds me with the living Bread.
Though my weary steps may falter,
And my soul athirst may be,
Gushing from the Rock before me,
Lo! A spring of joy I see;
Gushing from the Rock before me,
Lo! A spring of joy I see.

All the way my Savior leads me
O the fullness of His love!
Perfect rest to me is promised
In my Father’s house above.
When my spirit, clothed immortal,
Wings its flight to realms of day
This my song through endless ages—
Jesus led me all the way;
This my song through endless ages—
Jesus led me all the way."
-All the way my Saviour leads me, Fanny Crosby

"Father let me dedicate all this life to Thee
In whatever worldly state Thou would have me be
Not from sorrow, pain or care, freedom dare I claim
This alone shall be my prayer, glorify Thy name

Can a child presume to choose where or how to live?
Can a father's love refuse all the best to give?
Let my glad heart, while it sings, Thee in all proclaim
And, whate'er the future brings, glorify Thy name"
-Father let me dedicate, Matt Redman

Truly this is my prayer.

"I cannot tell how silently He suffered,
As with His peace He graced this place of tears,
Or how His heart upon the cross was broken,
The crown of pain to three and thirty years.
But this I know, He heals the brokenhearted,
And stays our sin, and calms our lurking fear,
And lifts the burden from the heavy laden,
For yet the Savior, Savior of the world is here."

In this cold, hard world, I must always remember that I have a wise and loving God.

"Are you tired of chasing pretty rainbows?
Are you tired of spinning round and round?
Wrap up all those shattered dreams of your life
And at the feet of Jesus, lay them down.

Give them all, give them all, give them all to Jesus
Shattered dreams, wounded hearts, and broken toys.
Give them all, give them all, give them all to Jesus
And He will turn your sorrows into joy.

He never said you only see sunshine,
He never said there would be no rain.
He only promised a heart full of singing
About the very thing that once brought pain."

"Charm is deceptive, and beauty is fleeting; but a woman who fears the Lord is to be praised."-Proverbs 31:30

May I be willing, Lord, to bear
Daily my cross for Thee;
Even Thy cup of grief to share,
Thou hast borne all for me.

Lest I forget Gethsemane,
Lest I forget Thine agony;
Lest I forget Thy love for me,
Lead me to Calvary.

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Looking back
He sees it all
It was her first date the night he came to call

Her dad said son
Have her home on time
And promise me you’ll never leave her side

The way she laughed, the dress she wore
He’d never felt like this before

He was walking her home
And holding her hand
Oh the way she smiled it stole the breath right out of him
Down that old road
With the stars up above
He remembers where he was the night he fell in love
He was walking her home

Ten more years and a waiting room
At half past one
And the doctor said come in and meet your son

His knees went weak
When he saw his wife
She was smiling as she said he’s got your eyes

And as she slept he held her tight
His mind went back to that first night

He was walking her home
And holding her hand
Oh the way she smiled it stole the breath right out of him
Down that old road
With the stars up above
He remembers where he was the night he fell in love
He was walking her home


He walked her through the best days of her life
Sixty years together and he never left her side

A nursing home
At eighty-five
And the doctor said it could be her last night

And the nurse said Oh
Should we tell him now
Or should he wait until the morning to find out
But when they checked her room that night
He was laying by her side

Oh he was walking her home
And holding her hand
Oh the way she smiled when he said this is not the end
And just for a while they were eighteen And she was still more beautiful to him than anything
He was walking her home
He was walking her home

Looking back
He sees it all
It was her first date the night he came to call

-Mark Schultz - Walking Her Home
From the album Broken & Beautiful

About words....

Words.. -when we open our mouths, they come spewing out relentlessly.-
can build up.. but they can also tear down.......do u even realise...
can turn away wrath.. but they can also stir up anger.Proverbs 15:1
can bring healing.. but they can also crush the spirit.
can bring people together.. but can also tear them apart.
can glorify or dishonour God.
come from the heart..Proverbs 27:19


How then, should I glorify You with what I say?

one month on, one week more
one more test to go
before the great catch-up begins..

many things on my heart,
some left unsaid,
many desires,
swept up in a corner.

Boy, am i tired.

On hindsight, one months fly by really quickly. (when you're having fun)

I was relieved that I had made it when my exams finally ended, and looking forward to one month of good, solid rest. Before I knew it, school had started again. The holidays were memorable though. I still remember how I kept praying that I would hold out till the end of the exams because I didn't want to repeat the semester again. And God did.. I only landed in the hospital after that. Though it was horrible, I'm so thankful that I wasn't in that state one week earlier or later.

One month ago, I was waiting in anticipation for Joses' return. Before I knew it, it was time to go again. Though the loss stings me from time to time, I thank God for the month that passed.

Now i hope one month flies by really quickly while i'm in school.. so that CNY would come soon. heh.

and the madness starts again tmr. woohoo. hopefully this sem won't be as tough as last sem was. but im going easy on myself at least for the first few weeks! last sem has taught me that studying hard consistently could lead to me burning out and falling sick RIGHT before the exams. heh..

"Lord of past ages, Lord of this morning,
Lord of the future, help us we pray.
Teach us to trust You, love and obey You,
Crown You each moment Lord of today."

I'm finally home!!!!! :)

After 3 days at the "5-star hotel" in Changi.. (ie. Changi General Hospital).. heh. it's great to be home again. Had a really bad bout of food poisoning on Sunday which left me quite dehydrated, but i'm much better now.. though i still need lots of rest and less time on the com or walking around.

so well.. i'll blog about the hospital stay another time.. it was restful, i must say, although i got a little bored.

if i had things my way, i wish i could....

• walk, run, jump, swim without feeling tired
• stop being sick
  
• turn back time and set all things right..
  

:(

haha, Confucius is profound, or maybe it's the religion textbook authors..

"The Confucian approach to human relations uncovers an oddity about the phrase "fall in love". If love is something we fall into, it is something we can fall out of, too. But do we not want to say that true love is an active commitment to a person, not just a passive "undergoing" of emotions that overwhelm us? Jesus commanded love; but if love can be commanded, it must be an active rather than a passive approach. It does not just happen to us; we must will it. So it appears that true love is not what we are talking about when we speak of falling in love. The key point that Confucianism teaches us here is that the highest form of relating to another person- true love- is an active approach, a quality or virtue or act of will." -Religion textbook.

insightful huh? that's why i prefer the phrase "growing in love"

heh.. just scrapped my previous post. thought it was pretty pointless..

i just mused in the shower. i love taking long showers though it aggravates my asthma.. but somehow i realise many things about God and myself in the shower.

today in the shower, i mused about a rocky relationship. somehow, relationship issues always bring me back to my relationship with God.. because i've always held to the notion that relationships between a man and a woman mirror our relationship with God, though the latter definitely takes precedence.

as i mused and prayed.. i realised how much we take God for granted and how we use Him as an excuse sometimes to fulfil our own desires. so often, we use the phrase "thank God" and we go to God when we are facing dire circumstances.. but what struck me was this question: "is this what God wants of us? solely to be acknowledged by us in Name?" my reply to well.. the steam around me was "definitely not.." so often, we acknowledge God's hand in our lives but refuse to take time to listen to Him, spend time building a relationship with Him..

well, i'll be the first to admit that i'm so guilty of that. i still remember my conversation with wei'en a few weeks ago when i acknowledged God and shared that indeed, He has been faithful. but when asked about my prayer life, i had to confess that i was struggling.. i was and still am. after the sermon on prayer the other day, i felt led to wake up early every morning to pray for 2 hours.. but all my attempts failed. the snooze button on my phone is probably rusted and tainted by now.

i guess musings like that do demand a response. i don't know what made me suddenly want to blog about this.. maybe just to share and build up. so.. yep. back to GEK1045.

*phew* breathes a sigh of relief. my 2 terrorizing papers are over.

i am relieved and i can literally breathe a little easier now, though i still get bouts of difficulty, and i can feel the phlegm down my airways.

i think i seriously need to rest. physically rest. it's scary.. so as of now, i will stop drinking cold water, eating sweets and whatever could possibly constrict my bronchioles.

but i am still relieved. even though they kinda killed me today with the liver question, i am glad my patho and pharmaco papers are finally over.

i shall rest tonight..before i start fending for my remaining three modules. no one shall be allowed to disturb me....