Friday, October 01, 2004

heh.. i'm back after a long time of not blogging.. haha.. as usual. anyway i just came home.. sent the car for servicing after my morning lesson.. then pumped petrol.. spent lots of money on both activities.. yup..

hmmm.. these few days i've been recuperating from the tests last week.. and yeah.. im having menstrual cramps now! oh well.. oh i passed the test which i thought i was gonna fail! haha.. got 24/4o. was at the bottom of the class but i told myself that as long as i pass, i'll be happy! for the other test on sat.. i did okay.. 72/100.. but as usual.. everyone in class did super well.. haha.. the average was like 80+!! haha.. pharmacy ppl are smart and hardworking!! eek! i better work hard too! Oh.. and the top student in pharmacy is quite a strong christian.. from what she writes in the forum.. heee.. praise God!

yeah.. on a more reflective note.. like yiling wrote, i've been thinking abt God's grace too.. and His love for us.. and the past few days.. i've been thinking of how sinful i am.. and how i've really trivialised the hellishness of sin in some things that i do.. how unworthy i am of His grace.. and yeah.. been praying abt it.. i really want to change the way i see sin.. the way i take God's forgiveness for granted.. i must have incurred God's wrath sooooo many times! haha.. i'm sure we all have.. and as i read Psalm 51 yesterday.. yeah.. i realised it was a prayer i wanted to make to God..

Have mercy on me, O God, according to Your unfailing love,
according to Your compassion, blot out my transgressions.
Wash away all my iniquity and cleanse me from my sin.
For I know my transgressions and my sin is always before me.
Against You, You only, have I sined and done what is evil in Your sight,
so that You are proved right when You speak and justified when You judge.
Surely I was sinful at birth, sinful from the time my mother conceived me.
Surely You desire truth in the inner parts, You teach me wisdom in the inmost place.
Cleanse me with hyssop, and I will be clean;
wash me and I will be whiter than snow.
Let me hear joy and gladness; let the bones You have crushed rejoice.
Hide Your face from my sins and blot out all my iniquity.
Create in me a pure heart, O God, and renew a steadfast spirit within me.
Do not cast me from Your presence or take Your Holy Spirit from me.
Restore to me the joy of Your salvation and grant me a willing spirit, to sustain me.
Then i will teach transgressors Your ways, and sinners will turn back to You.
Save me from bloodguilt, O God, the God who saves me, and my tongue will sing of Your
O Lord, open my lips and my mouth will declare Your praise.
You do not delight in sacrifice, or I would bring it;
You do not take pleasure in burnt offerings.
The sacrifices of God are a broken spirit; a broken and contrite heart
O God, You will not despise.

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